sweet-EST addicTION

2009-02-25T23:15:00.001-11:00

soon,
this blog will be down
and im not changing url or something
im just closing it down
cus..
it feels like.
im already BORED to HELL on blogging
so yeahs
im closing this down
and duno when i'll be starting another one again
so im leaving it as it is.
to let it goo dead-er and dead-er
so yeahs.

ending heres.
GOODBYES!~

2009-02-24T00:58:00.003-11:00

some kind of fucking guailan kia come mi blog spam -.-
hey i dun care what i am
i am what i am
cus this is who i am
and you cant change me
everyone is special
arent we?

we are what we are
we are special in every single way
we are born in different situations, places, times, day and dates.
we are special in our own ways

some are more clever than others,
some are faster learners than others
others are not...
some are just, quiet and emo
others are just, happy and out!
we are all different types of people
each of us contain at least ONE special characteristics.

so whats the point if i act uh?

now lets stop all my stupid craps.
im getting back into old stuff eh?
giving this kind of stupid talks.
but in the end who listens?
its just crap eh?
goes in in one ear
and comes out in the other.
so i shall just stop wasting my energy on typing craps yeah

tuhday was okay.
hahas
basketball ah.
nat ho tuhday ermm..
on top there got a lil sot sot
hahah
she keep laughing
ahem. i mean he
HAHAH
i didnt expect to meet my dad at that VERY bus.
969
me and my mouth
i told weiting tuhday
if i can meet my dad in the same bus tuhday
AND IT HAPPENED??!!
!@@!$#$
hahas.
mad diao lerh lah
then i walked home with daddy
and found an excuse why i was late.
say daddy go buy beer lorhxx.
make me late -.-
true lehh
haha
diaoooO!~
ending here ,
byes

when im alone, im speechless
noone cares about me
im just invisible there
and im there thinking to myself
wondering millions, billions of questions.
why am i so useless??
can't i just get up to the fact,
and face the reality??
hais.

it hurts not to see you
once, you treated me so well.
next thing i know, you were giving me a cold shoulder.
lastly..
you wouldn't even talk to me
and wouldnt even let me talk to you
and via SMS,
you wouldnt reply me
but i tried my very best, to live up to your expectations.
and you would reject every single outing i offerred.
i was heartbrokened
and i had to spend my time with the others.
i helped you solved your problems,
i helped you in everything
and i duno if i should take you as a crush or a friend
but all i know is
im in love with you
too much
and i hope that you can turn up tmr.
you light a smile up my face
and i can't resist
spending a single second without you

live in reality rose,
not in fantasy
wake up, bring me back to life

but he was the cause what made me hurt myself,
once again,
just to get him outta my mind

~~i cried for another guy, ridiculous~~

2009-02-23T00:19:00.003-11:00

sigh

number one , relationships problems

done! ( successful! )

number two , frenship problems

DONE ! ( unsuccessful )

number three , confessions

DONE ! ( unsuccessful cus i didnt even do it -.-)

but im not teling what i am confessing xD

number four, clear my fever

UNDONE ! ( it cant be cured -.-)

school was ohkays

normal
perfectly normal
like any other girls -.-

im done crapping
ending here
and byes !~

~~i got my very own private blog so im gonna write all my thhoughts there. SAYONARA!~~~

freak
everyone seems to be happier seeing us together uh?

im sorry i put you into this trouble.
really sorrry

sigh

byes..

2009-02-22T17:02:00.001-11:00

ystd went tuh see my juniors and my sister perform at marina square.
yeah
it was fun
went with kellynn , jiaenn and rachel.
hahas.
yeahs
fun fun and more fun

after that the performance
went to eat pizza hut.
yeahs
queued for a long time
and finally can eat lerh

nth much

im not talking bout life.
as i said
will be changing blogskin
and marks the start of my life
and nowadays,
im not gonna post much

revenge is sweeter than you ever were..

i was fucking angry when you said that
bloody jealous.
do you even know how much i was hurt

2009-02-21T18:42:00.001-11:00

i dun wanna talk about my life.
it ain't any good
im just a human,
leaving normal lives like other people do
only that.
im turning into a bad girl.

my heart sank when you said that
thanks for adding salt into my wound
i will never forget what you said
what you did.
but i just hope, you will know.
how much you meant to me

~~boy, i really do love you~~

im not talking about life nowadays much
well...
you can say that.
im fucking bad now eh

boy, i loved you.
i didnt have the guts to tell you
my heart sank
when i heard that.. i mean
what is so good about that girl?
im not chio.
im not cute.
im not perfect
but..
i hope that you can notice me somehow.
in a way that you would talk to me
in a way that you would keep noticing me
am i too bad for you?
all i know is.
im fucking in love with you
~~when we arent / are matchy. -.-~~

2009-02-20T00:09:00.010-11:00

cross country uh.
i got the 10th among the girls.
throughout the whole level
wooooooots!~

kellynn now talking to me
she maybe going wushu worh!
HAPPY HAPPY

okay back to topic
after that i went homie
and then ate my muffin
that was my lunch -.-

and then RUSHED to cwp to meet niklas , lukris and veron
waaaaahh. lukris and niklan wear home clothes nia
then we played in timezone for like 1 hr likethat
didnt expect to see megan and weiting around
so that they can pei me go back school
cus i going to watch match!

ended very quickly
can play more de
and lukris seah..
you gonna get everything from me on monday
i'll payback
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
my turn to tickle you lerh

then went for match
they play match,
we play also -.-
we use another court and practised
CLEVER SIALLLL!~
but stupid adrian
im gonna kill you alsooo
call me gao zai
you also tall whattts!~
only shorter than me 1 cm only
hahassss
and noob!~
bleah
stupid ..

guys lost.
well.
nth much tuh say

my bball bdivision de boys sibei funneh
keep taking pictures.
their phones cool seh
got flashlight!~
and cybershot -.-

okay
took some neoprints with veron and gina at timezzone tuhday
soo gonna psot it
and i know
i fucking sucks!~

hahas
and im the ugliest yawh

yeahs.
gina said it was her first time
but it was good yeah
CHIO BOO?!~
i know i sucks
llols.
hmm
now a little conversation between me, dion, and my DEAR VANESSA!~
16022009 ( vanessa )

16022009<3 says:
DION'S BOOB = MEGA F SIZE

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
but ichimaru still win byakuya and hitsugaya leh

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
mega fucking size?

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
HAHA!~

16022009<3 says:
OKAY THEN ICHIMARU

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
yeahs

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
ur another crush rite? i know i know

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
rose jealous liao

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
lol

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
who>
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
who**
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
me?
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
huh?
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
WHAT??!

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
ichimaru

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
i went to refill water -.-

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
RELAX

16022009<3 says:
lol

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
what??!

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
A DEH

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
DEH DEH RELAX

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
i jealous what?
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
YOUR BOOBS BIG AH??!

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
DEH DEH DEHDEHDEH

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
NO LAH

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
DEH WHAT DEH??!

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
DEH LAX LAX

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
DEH WHAT LAH!

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
DEH YOUR NEH NEH LAH

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
sibei big sial

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
DEH MY NEH NEH???!!?!!?

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
i tot my butt?

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
YAH LAH!

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
YOUR NEH NEH LAH

!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
need bigger
!! 阿嫔 !！ Crushed ; ILOVEYOU says:
big until burst

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
so small

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
urs bigger den mine still

[][][][][][][][]huang zhong(gong jian shou)[][][][][][][][] says:
lol

qian bian right?
nvm
monday i one shot hamtam 3 or them
adrain, lukris and DION SEAH!

muahahahahaha
-.-
see my ji dong de side..
okay lah
let me talk bad about dion here
wakakakakakaka

lets see.

hes a girl soo.

small boobs,
too blur,
too short,
hair toooo short,
small eyes
big butt
flabby stomach!
lols.
no lah
hes too skinny -.-
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
oops
i mean
SHEEE!

okay im being mean
and lame -.-

i edited the gay to girl
ahhahahaha

DION SEAH.
open your eyes..
SEEEEEE
i write girl liao horh
so dun argue ahh.
hahahahha
be a good ah gong and rest
you faint one more time got stroke ah
you will end up in coffin straight away
ahahhaha
-.-
im lame
jkjk only horh

so ending here!
GOOODBYESS!~

baby, i really do love you
cant you just notice me?
i am trying my best not to go close to you
but still.
you forced me to.
your magnet was too strong

2009-02-19T01:16:00.003-11:00

kaopei nia
niklas keep calling me
ask me fucking craps.
cheebye lah

lets start the dayy.
girl guides. gogogog!~
im not from girl guides -.-
just cheering for fun
hahas.
lewis very pro
shout teh whole school can hear lorh
heeheee

lets seeeeeeeeeee.
school was average
fucking boring
and had to SHOW attitude

kaopei nia

lets see bball.
i super duper lovveeeed it
air con room
hahas.
then watch some vidz.
woah
i think i addicted to bball vidz
then training was long long long long
ended at about 6 plus
woah

nvm
TMR THEN CHANGEBLOGSKIN!~

still got run tmr.
heehee
now go haave some fruits first.
i guai guai nia
soo
GOODNIGHTS HUMANS!~

2009-02-18T23:55:00.001-11:00

i may appear happy.
but in within .
im as dreadful
as ALWAYS..

lets start the day.
BLASTING of music in my ears
while going to school.
and was still BLASTING it in my ears when i reached school
boom boom boom boom
and mind you
it rocks
cus its HARD ROCK people
hahhaahahaha
-.-

in the morning we all were like keep talking about piercing ear
cus i was going to
ahah
then then then
then what?
hhhhhaaaaaahhhhh
HE test
confirm fail de lah
cus i didnt study
pro right?
-.-
then had had ermm.
IT
ahha!~
i starting to hate IT
-___-lll
we are supposed to like it but i hate it xD

had the malay conver thing thing

was with LELIAAA!~
then had some candid pics of her and kehui
FINALLY
-.-
malay conversational ahh.
VERY funny, but a lil not funn
gina tickle lukris.
he say mosquito bite
i tickle him.
he say AH! STOMACHACHE!

and then .....
AFTER SCHOOOLL!~
got to pierce my ear.
went with veron, gina and lukrisss!~
then lukris outside wait for us
and met niklas and dion
went to popular
and then saw JIE YING
and then smsed JIAENN
call her come northpoint pei me de
in the end call me treat her to ice cream
nd went home -.-
then stayed
and then me, lukris , veron and gina we all stand a a pillar
SLACK THERE??!
-.-
we keep talking there
and nvr move
then say want find place sit down de
still stayed there
in the end went library tlak talk lorh
talk talk talk talk
soooo fast
then must go homie liao
lukris funneh sial.
he really know how to cheer ppl up lorh xD
thanks uncle. lao pa?
-.-

teeheee

woah. now suddenly ear abit pain pain
left side
right side i keep playing with the earring -.-
left side ahh
DUN DARE TOUCH!
gina said cannot takeout till after one week
:X
gina - kitty
dion - doogggggggyyy??
hahahhha

ending here
i playing with my ear!
but cannt play too much
later got infection how?
DIE DIE DIE DIE!~
-.-

hey im not talking
even if you think its weird
im silent
awkward eh?
but why do all of you seem to get all the things you want but not me?

~~im fucking in love with you baby.~~

weird things are happenings

2009-02-18T01:21:00.002-11:00

will change bs the next time.
now i gtg
byes

2009-02-17T23:59:00.000-11:00

blooody dayy
fucking day
hell day

yeahs
I HAVE CHANGED! SO WHAT UH?
what has it gotta do with all of you uh?
I AM ME! NOONE CAN CHANGE ME
ONLY I !
I , ROSE SOONG ! CAN CHANGE MYSELFFF!
my future, i change it,
my dream, no one can change it except MEEE!~
noone can change ME!
NOONE!
NOT EVEN my best fren or whatsoever
my parents , my family.
NOONE!
because im the way i am

wondering why im saying this?
well people.
ASK YOURSELVES.
i didnt say you guys did anything wrong
but you guys just keep saying.
" why is rose avioding me?
rose changed."
and so whatever things.

IM VULGAR
SO WHAT?
i dun need to apologise
i even scolded in front of DM.
he didnt care
i scolded vulgarities during bball
teacher heard
so what?
punished for 10 pumpings only whats

sighs
I AM ME
i can say i hate me
i can say i love me
basically.
i hate me -.-
what fuck crap im talking
sigh

today. you can see
IM HYPERRRRRRRRRR!
funneh
NOT!
when im alone. i just do my own things. thinking..
thinking thinking
lifes so unfair..

sooo whaaaaaaaat??!
sigh im not gonna list
my reasons
OF COURSE!!!
you think i so stupid ah?

-.-

but im not gonna listouts
cus i scare some BIGMOUTHS will tell it out
gahhhhhs

going to bball
i just got my specs fixed
cus kena hit by the ball
WO GEN NI YOU CHOU SHI MA??!
hais
then my watch also spoil
WHAT THE FUCKK?!~

im honestly mad
i wasnt in a very good mood in bball
and *** , *** and ***
did worsened
my mood
yeahs.
kaobei uh?
you kaobu lah
chaocheebye lah
you got cheebye no lanjiao -.-
yeahs
almost forgotten eh

kaobei lah
my father dun allow me wear contact lense
fuck right?
then say what i too young
he TOO OLD LAH
kaobei lorh

and my bloody cousin gave his parents my blog
and now they see my blog
I DUN CARE!
im changing URL soon
AGAIN
in case my parents know and they SEE again
kao lah

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

i may sound freakkk
but yeah

perspire.
dance,
twirl.
full volume
passion
venting anger
its all worth it
with one word..
dance..

cus now i dun even know myself.
now..
noww.
and maybe forever.
IM FREAKKOOOOOOO!~

but im psycho now really.
cus today kena trashed by the ball TWICE
and 3 cups of coke
come back home
MUSCLE CRAMP

unless you like her then..
SAYYYYYY!~
-.-
or you wunt be sooo angry

~~shutup you BIGMOUTHHHHHHH! i hate you~~

music is my passion..
and i am not embarassed to say it out
i lock myself in the room
while doing homework
with my earpists stuck in my ears
full volume.
and find the song that best descirbes how im feeling tuhday
hard rockk. ( angry , irritating, annoyed)
soft rock, classic ( sad and whatever -.-)

thanks for letting my burst out into tears
instead of laughters.
seeing you kills me now
thanks alot.
for bringing me into this state
because now i know
i can never trust anyone. AGAIN
yeah.
i know i CANT..

tears, lies, betrayall..
hah...
what so good about that?

~~i get this feeling backk. teehee~~

are you willing to be my valentine's

2009-02-16T23:57:00.000-11:00

what stupiiiddddd valentines week
yeah
sucks
so farr...
hahaha.

so farr.
3 ppl confessed to me
and its like.
WAHHHLAOOOO!
-.-

and boooo!~
i hai dao le weilun
all because of his fren
GOOOD fren
yeahs.
sorry weilun
very very soorrrryyyy.
i thought it was true
so i couldnt take it
soo.
IM TRUELY SORRY

okay enough of crap
i got short term memory liaos.
SHYYT!~!
i forgotten cherry de msn liao
die die die die die
NVM!
tmr i ask her again

well basically.
today school was school.
i onlyy rememberr
went for bball tournament
and the stupid PE.
with the pervert teacher
sighh

then i diaooo-ed someone
sighh
got bf dun wan fren liao mah
come begg me lorh.
why stil must bother to care about you?
bf here bf there
stil need frens for?
treat us as maid ah?
duncare liao lorh
i gonna give you a cold shoulder
so dun come crying
and stop giving wild thoughts on thinking that everyone will be your fren likethat
dream on

the bball tournament was.
well.
kinda facinating
LOL!
but lets talk about the bus
LOL!~
we were the ONLY children
haha
and cherry was like " YAY! WE ARE GOING OUTING! "
she too high liao.
keep shouting that
" outing! yay!"
and the bus was all pasted with mediacorp pictures.
chnl U and 8
then the bus uncle said
later look outside must say I AM AN IDOLLL!
IM AM A STARRR!

LOL!~
funnehh
talked alot with megan, weiting and cherry
in the bus
keep laughing

watched teh bbal tournament
the seniors keep calling us sit down
BUT WE JUST CANT!
we sit liao then stand up
cus toooo chi ji liao

and for lunch
we were very stupid enough to buy from the chu chao one
LOL!
no buisness
and went home
i bought a packet of tibits.
i was eating
cus i cant finish
so asked the seniors wanted to eat anot
in the bus
cherry sit with me
and the packet was still FULL
so she said she wanted one
i gave her

cherry : " stop me from eating if i take a 2nd one. wo zai jian fei "
me : " okayyy ! "

ate ate ate

cherry : " i want another one!!!! ><"
rose : " okay.. " WAITTT " you jian fei ! "
cherry : " haha. nvm. later third one then stop me "
rose : " okay. third one i beat you! "
cherry : " okay okay"

ate ate ate
talked talked talked
chat chat chat

cherry : I WANT ANOTHER ONE! but dun hit me
rose : okay i wun. but i will TICKLE YOUU!
cherry : okay okay. i rather let you hit than tickle
rose : okay lah. fang le ni!

LOLLL!~
its funneh
been a longggg day for me
but its funn
haha

soo ending here
bye humans!
and inhumaness!~
-.-

Valentines Day - Linkin Park

referring this to those..
whose valentines sucks to them
like meeeee!

soo.
yeahs
refer to th lyrics

My insides are turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
(Cuz my mind has lost direction somehow)
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day
(Cuz my mind has lost direction somehow)

and it refers..
to a lonely valentines day
painful
like.. me?
LOL!
BHB!

2009-02-15T18:38:00.000-11:00

a mixture of feelings are running around me
mixture of feelings.
we fought
and it ended ystd
and i didnt get to express my feelings
i just flared up.
i purposely chose the time when im going to sleep
to hide under my blanket and reply your msg
cus i dun wanna break down
and if i did
i must break down..
silently.

and i did...
thats her, crying herself to sleep
spending her special day , suffering alone.
breaking and tearing ..
hurt and spending her worst...
valentines day , suffering herself
because ..
it all ended on valentines...

she tried to be nice
but he replied :
" like i care . "
she was awfully hurt. she tried to stay strong..
in the end . she replied meanly.
GOODNIGHT!

and she bursted off.

she tried smsing him
but each time she wanted to press the " send " button
she couldnt.
" move on with life , rose "
thats what she said .
" you can do it , as long as you try your best. to get him outta your mind "

just now.
he smsed me.
i was asking myself.
should i reply?

.
......
...........
....................

should i be a good girl and study?
and follow my mommy's rule
of not getting into a relationship until im 18
not scolding vulgarities..
no using violence.
just being a geek
guai kia..

or break every single rule?

i can't break down
i am strong

lets stop here
nth happened tuhday
because of falling asleep way late.
i woke up at 10 plus .
yeah
later going play badminton?
cus my dad booked court

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

hes got another girl
i broke up with a guy
and im here
feeling lost...

i have so much to tell.
but no time to update the private blog.

yeah. so rachel
do update worhh xD

我一直很想这样作，
可是没了你，
我失去了所有

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

在你怀里的微笑

"learn to love yourself.
and love will come to you easily."
i heard this from a radio
hah
hope it can come useful ..

well..
im ending here
will be online-ing later on maybe in the evening

there won't be another chance for us anymore .
because i dun think that i can step into another relationship again
and im sorry to that guy who confessed to me during valentines.
i can't accept your love.
i think i never can...
sorry.

2009-02-14T19:49:00.000-11:00

this is first basically dedicated to me? haha
okay im a freak at crapping
im just gonna write a story ..
life's full of ups and downs and yeah
we must learn to appreciate it before its wayy to late for us
when you have a stead or whatsoever
please do treasure them
and give it a second thought. on how hurtful it will end
and how mean you must be to stop it from hurting
to mend back the wound
so its no point being emo or whatsoever
emotional breakdown is normal. cus we are undergoing puberty
and i hope this story can relate to all of you guys

title : never underesitmate her

life the way it is ,
but it never went what i wanted it to be
i am joyln and this is somehow how my life went

i was like any other normal school girl who just ended up in her own new school
i had a bf of my ownn
we broke up and patched
his name was derick
a few days ago, we just patched and
i wasn't ready for it
cus after we broke up i was always thinking
YAY! im single again!
im being single! and i can do whatever i want ! and can play or flirt with other boys.
how did i know
without him, my mood would go down by afew percent
and with him, my mood would go down too..
something just felt amiss everytime

and i basically. i had to break his heart
i didnt want to..
he's just like a pill to me

but when im single,
i felt that i had many crushes
and didnt know what on earth i was possibly doing ..
seeing who treated me well, i will fall in love with him
and then when i meet another guy
i would too
and suddenly i realised myself being a psychopath
and asked myself : " what exactly is a crush ? "
and i suddenly forgot what it meant
how it felt
how i was supposed to be
im just simply hurt when i forgotten how it felt

and today is valentine's and im probably spending it on my own
because
im just not sure of my feelings
and i know derick is angry with me
and in school, i would have friends who have a perfect stead with them
who ignores totally about her friends
and go with her stead
and she just wants everyone to know her
thats alll
she is just jealous
thats all
no matter how many friends she has
one by one they will hate her

but today.
i have to spend the valentine's day alone
all by myself
in this lonely room

i looked back at the smses he sent back to me
im just holding back the tears,
not letting it, not allowing it to come out
i know im a strong girl
but i breakdown easily

i took a penknife out from my friend, jean, pencilcase
i started to think that it will end all my troubles
because i feel great ..

blood oozed out of my wrist
and jean, and dean looked at me
they stared at me with a shocked look
and i asked : " what ??!"
they just walked away

i didnt wash off the blood
i just contiuned staring and pressing
forcing more
to come out
i felt happy after that
but after awhile, my wrist started feeling weak.
and i could hardly move it

but its my actions, i take responsibility of it
and
noone can stop me from my actions.
cus my future, my life, is in my hands

but im just totally hurt by him ..
simply..
i think we broke up.
and im mean to do that
very..

but now.
he apologised
and vent his anger on me just now..
but...
im already hurt
what else can he do?
hes just a pill
that makes me feel that there is warmth in this world
just a pill that cures my loneliness

but all i know is
learn to love yourself before you learn to love others xD

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

next story , dedicated to vanessa xD

life may not go as it seems.
but if you can't overcome some circumstances and obstacles,
how are you going to over come even harder ones in future?

title : i know i can pull through

my name is kelly
and i am like a normal teenage girl
leading her normal life
going to school and stuff.

my life was perfect until 3 years ago....

i heard my parents fighting in the living room late at night
while i was simply asleep
i was awokened by the deafening screams and shoutings from my parents
i took a little peek from the living room
and saw them
screaming at each other
i overheard what my parents were talking about
my daddy was outside having an affair
and my mommy was upset

the next morning when i woke up
i saw my mother in the kitchen
taking out a knife, and slashing herself
i was young at that time
so i was curious and tried

soon after nights of continuous fighting and quarrells.
they broke up in the end
which brought not only hurt my mother
it hurt me too

i did not dare to step into a relationship since then
but i mostly hung out with guys

now.
i have pulled through
but im undergoing this valentine
alone

i wonder when i would get back the confidence again
to step out into a relationship?

and im gonna be strong

ending here yeahh

so peepos
once again
happy valentines and
last long with your loved ones

and
happy birthday to chong jiaenn

changing blogskin
and lifting another phrase from vanessa's blog :

On the outside, I appear to be carefree and happy-go-lucky but deep down, I'm not like that.
Deep down, my heart is surrounded by the bluest of emotions.
Deep down, I struggle to get through life.
Deep down, people don't know the real me, the evil one, the pure monster.
Deep down, I have times where I just want to end my life in my very own bare hands.
Deep down, the real me is caged and has yet to be freed.
Deep down, I just want to drop everything else and walk away.
Deep down, vivid and sorrowful emotions hide themselves away from the crowd.
Deep down, my heart cannot be mended anymore, no one can sew me up.
Deep down, all I want is a person who can be there for me for I want to unmask myself.
Deep down, my façade is something that cannot be taken off, it's a permanent mask.
Deep down, I am all alone on Valentine's Day.

it all ended
the most painful valentine's day for me.... xD

2009-02-14T19:24:00.000-11:00

tsao cherying
you stupid spammer
okay dun play liao okay???!
hahahahaha
nvm
i delete it like siau first
at least cher siew not like you
hahahahahahaha
-.-
okay im lame
very lame

craps lah me

yeahs happy birthday to CHONG JIAENN!
and happy valentines.
well.
im not really in the mood to post much bout tuhday.
so em..
yeahs.

im just posting a short one here
and starting another post

but first
i wanna thank vanessa
my beloved triple G great grandmother
haha
yeahs really thanks..

and im writing 2 stories later
one for me and one for you
thanks girl. lots.

Anyway, I have dedicated this post to my passion for writing and my dear new friend.
Alright, so this might not be actually good but I decided to do it because I want people to get a touch or feeling of how some may be feeling right now, especially teenagers. I do hope this touches your heart and you'll know how to act around people who may seemed to be distant at times. Don't label them, they're not emo or an outcast, they're just them, going through certain phases of life. Certain phases that even, you, might go through at some point of life.

Story entitled "You Can't Take Control Over Me"

Hello everyone, my name is Clara Falls and this is the story of my life, so far...

I smirked as the blood flowed endlessly out of my wrist, I glanced at my two new friends who mouths were dropping agape.

"What?" I inquired.

Genevieve closed her mouth and shook her head restlessly, "Nothing, nothing."

I turned to Demi who just kept quiet, I sighed and left the classroom; heading towards the washroom to wash the blood away.

Apparently, cutting is my antidote to everything now. When I cut, I no longer feel the pain and sorrow that I once felt. I tried it at first due to my curiosity, I never knew it'd turn out to be so awesome.

All I can say is that, life has been very hectic and problematic for me nowadays. I've just only entered a new school like everybody else in my level, yet I felt different from them all. They seem so happy and cheery, only a few were the opposites. So carefree like birds let out of a cage whereas I'm the locked on, still waiting to break free from the endless captivity and torture.

Am I whore? A bitch? A hoe? If no, then why do I feel so perturbed whenever I see different guys in my new school, someday, I like this guy and on the other days, I couldn't care less.

There's this guy, Leon, who I've just broken up with. I felt that it wouldn't worked out but we patched up, nonetheless.

I don't know what is it with me. Everything seemed so rush, seemed all like a blur to me. And I am just a disdain and desolated teenager? Why won't somebody come pull me out of this sorrow, the pain, it's like a casualty.

The second thing is, certain people have been spreading rumors about me and I thought, they were my friends. Why can't I just trust people whom I can trust? Why did I trust those who betrayed and back stabbed me? Why can friends be the perfect friends that we want?

Don't try to judge or take shots of me, I'll never let you seize control.

vanessa wrote this to me
thanks ..
alot.
it meant alot to me
i was touched xD

thanks alot..
i'll definately turn to you when you needed help
love you

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

pink - just like a pill

you are just a pill to me.
starting a new post. of 3 stories or 2..
hopefully can finish it by today
so im not really gonna entertain anyone in msn or whatsoever
so yeah

it means alot to me

and....
yeah..
you may think its crap..

~~but if it isn't you're a sucker~~

cus im really writing craps..
so um.
byes

you are just hurting me..
way too much

2009-02-13T20:59:00.001-11:00

but baby, you deserve to do that
not affording to say that
just leave me alone
and carry on with your life.
and i'll be alright
no need to worry about me
because i was deciving not only you
but me myself all this while too..

i think i should be single? yeahs

im sorry.
cus i duno what to do currently. i would rather us having crushes on each other
just in case i change my crush
-.-
i know im lame but
yeahs
im sorry if i break your heart once again
because
i dun wann the same thing happening again
you can see.
im a monster now.

so im sorry

once again

~~a penknife slashed. bloooooooodddyyy~~

2009-02-13T19:52:00.000-11:00

boooo!~
im backiiies!~

ystd handphone kena.
was counselled.
TODAYY??!
fighting in class ( not me )
but the WHOLE class together with 1/7 counselled tuhgether
sian lorh
kaobei lahh
okay lets stop talking about it.
school was alright

aiyoh
my sec school frens come mi blog no tag
so im not gonna
comment or what lorh
just in case they see anything.
muahahahahaha
i just super duper love cheryinggg,lelia and jiamin!
in my class lah -.-

reccess was like the most fun de lorh
but it was like torture ??
all stalls are closed
and there was like rationing something likethat
only could line up for one bun and a NEWater drink
the bun ah
i opened :
took afew bites.
and threw -.-
the water.
cher siew keep eating the yam and tapioca ( free de )
she keep putting the sugar
then i asked her :
nice ?
she said very nicee!~
then i see like.. not nice lorh
in the end.
i tried
i just stuffed everything into my mouth
then faster drank water and ran to the table ( whr the girls everytime hang out)
and then kept stuffing water inside .
haha
then after that saw JOEY ( bball de )
we talk awhile
then i went back to the table
then we talk talk talk
lucky i wasnt drinking anymore
cus
joey suddenly tickled me
i thought was lukris .
then i turned around
and started chasing and tickling her
her strength is siioooo big!~
haha. then finally managed to tickle her
then we walked walked walked
to the park and talked then i went back to seat again
joey walked past again
then veron whispered to me : i wanna be joey's fren.
and before that she said to me in class
" i go volleyball meet alot of frens! i so happy!"
i was like ._.
dun kb lah
~~you just want everyone to know you thats alll. right?~~
then joey came again
i walked with her and talked
saw a sec 3 de guy
he told joey he was going to see principal
then she asked why?
he replied :
forget to bring pen lah!

LOLLL!
we laughed lorh
funneh sial

then after that saw cherry
and went away
saw that guy again
LOL!~
then bell ring liao
need goo off lerh.
to class.
okay skip skip!~

then the total defence thingy .
aiyah
sucks sial
then before that we sec one was supposed to go up to the hall
then marcus go push lukris to me
and i was like CRUSHED into the wall.
fuck lah

then i angry i hit him
then lukris push him back to me
and i hit the wall AGAIN!
pain lorh
that time my whole hand numb diao

the 2 motherfuckers.
then when at the hall i saw lukris i purposely shout to cherying or lelia i forgot -.-
LATER IF THAT MOTHERFUCKER SIT NEAR ME I CHANGE PLACE OKAYY??!
fuck lorh
i sibei angry liao
still make me
think i what?
toy ah??!
motherfucker

then after that
was waiting at the bus stop
saw zhijun, junzhi and adrain

zhijun said :

ROSEEEEEEEEEEEEE - sydi!

then i looked at him -.-

then he repeated and i ran over to kick him
haha
but he ran away
TOOOOOOOOOOOOO FASTT!~
-.-
he somemore so tallll.
then junzhi and adrain also say.
i only make junzhi
cus he last time hai me de handphone kena
then ystd he nvr cus he ran away safely
stupids
they keep making me T.T
i so sad thing rights?

haha
nvm
monday i find them suan zhang .
muahahahaha!
sso if any of you see this better becareeeffffffffuuuuuulllllllll!
im roar-ing you

-.-

YAYYY!
the TALK IS CANCELLED
and i can get to see the tournament
but too bad lorh
i cannot take back HP
cannot take pictures.
fuck lah
NVM!
i bear with another 2 weekkkks.
bear
bear
bear
bear
!~

tou tou use my HP when my dad not around
muahahahaha
clever boh???
i mean my OLD de handphone lah
sibei old de lorh
w200i
siau lah
the camera is so suck de
ah

shit
and i am finding another BS
haha

but failed -.-

2009-02-12T00:19:00.002-11:00

weee.
handphone kena confiscate
ONCE AGAIN!
see i so pro de right?
woah
i changed liao lorh
i think this is the second time creating an offence
but first time getting offence slip -.-
i want
DETENTION!~

cus i want my phone back

KBKB!

woah alvin worse lorh
skip detention

today happy happy de
cus my chinese get 2nd highest in class!~
im si bei happy de lorh!~

then hp gonna get confiscate
i si bei sad diaooo
tehn i decided to turn in
so i just went to find mr yeung myself than letting him call me
soo.
yeahs.
but still
i got an offence slip
and handphone confiscated
BUT
SIM card gotten back -.-
handphone onllyyy.
but my mem stick nvr take out
so fuckkk!~

i got zilian zhao inside de lorh T.T
ltr teacher see will think i what?
mother fucker ah?
i so envious adrain lorh
AHEM when i say adrain its ADRAIN WONG! not tan or whatevr cus hes nt in my school ohkey
-.-
today sibei jialat
my water bottle ah
leaked water
fuck lah
but it didnt
cus it was caused by my stupid drink
leak leak leak
LEAK WHAT LEAK??!
hahaha
history was FUNNEHHH!~

rosydi and mr hazrin everytime very funneh de lorh
asfar also very daring .
hehe

see ah

MR hazrin : okay. copy down the qn. into your notes. what are ( duno what) bones made of?
asfar : MY ASS!!
MR hazrin : *pauses and looks at him* what you say? come up come up?
asfar: oooh nth nth.
MR hazrin : come uppp.... COMEE!
asfar : okay okay. teacher relaxxx.
MR hazrin : come up lahh!
asfar : but teacher i only talking to him ! ( to adrain )
MR hazrin : woah. talk so loud ah? come up lah
asfar : okay. okay. teacher relaxx relax okay? ( he was afraid that tcher use hit him haha!~)

then we all were like oh shit
he is sooo gonna get it

then mr hazrin asked

what did you say just now?
what are the ... bones made of?

asfar : NTH NTHHH!
MR hazrin : tell the class. what is it made of?
asfar : ( paiseh mahh ) nth lah nth... really.
MR hazrin : ( purposely act angry ) say ahh..
then he walks to the rubbish bin and thn took a bamboo stick
MR hazrin : want to say? what did you say just now?
asfar : teacher relax relax!
MR hazrin : what did you sayyy???

then kahwai interrupted :

HE SAID IT WAS MADE UP OF MY ASS!

LOLL!~

then asfar like sooo scared teacher will hit him
then teacher say

okay lah. go back now. see you want to cry likethat liao
* asfar glances at teacher *

gooo backk! you want get beaten ah?

then he went back
then next became rosydi!
HAHAHAHAHA!~
funny -.-

then the class laughed
soo funneh
i lurveeeee history class damn lots.
and i passed my history.
and failed my maths.

so..
erm
nth much tuhday
just fucking fun
and fucking sad

BBALLLL!~
lovee it
today went to the CC there play.
matched first
teamed up with mixed B divi and C divi
then training strt liao
then tcher want us have match using the 2 and 1 method
so luan
but then i fell
freak
ms winnie also
she damn cute and funneh de
cus she was in charge of us ( C divi de )
then she keep saying
C girls! keep thinking that the B divi very lan! cannot shoot in the hoop de!
just snatch REBOUND!
i snatch liao
then...
x.x
senior snatch away
cus its C vs B divi
hahas
then ms winnie said must like hug the ball ball
and then pivert foot
then pass
.
second time
cus i defender
i got the rebound
hugg the ball tight tight
too tight liao
then stuck
must pull out and then pivert foot
and THROOOOWW!~

i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bball C divi and B divi
hahas
lewis
yeahs. she may be a strict senior
but she is very good.
heehee

but monday cannot see the B divi de last match
sad sad
cus we got workshop
he stupid motivational talk de
then ms winnie and mr tan want bring us go de
in the end lehh?
we got the workshop cnanot go
then ms winnie was like very depressed
then say nvm
next time the b divi boys then bring us goo
heehee

eeeyer
i love bball lahhx
i love the teachers and the seniors and my teammates :X
heehee

they say..

rose,
你变坏了。。。。

Superstar
Where you from, how's it going?
I know you
Gotta clue, what youre doing?
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here
But I know what you are, what you are, baby

Look at you
Gettin' more than just a re-up
Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin' like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby

Womanizer, Woman-Womanizer, youre a Womanizer
Oh, Womanizer, oh youre a Womanizer, baby
You-you-you are
You-you-you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You got me goin
Youre oh so charmin
But I cant do it
You Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You say Im crazy
I got youre crazy
Youre nothin but a
Womanizer

Daddy-O
You got the swagger of a champion
Too bad for you
You just can't find the right companion
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard
It could be easy, who you are
Thats just who you are, baby

Lollipop
Must mistake me; youre the sucker
To think that I
Would be a victim, not another
Say it, play it how you wanna
But no way I'm ever gonna fall for you,
Never you, baby
Womanizer, Woman-Womanizer, youre a Womanizer
Oh, Womanizer, oh youre a Womanizer, baby
You-you-you are
You-you-you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You got me goin
Youre oh so charmin
But I cant do it
You Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You say Im crazy
I got youre crazy
Youre nothin but a
Womanizer

Maybe if we both lived in a different world
(Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer)
It would be all good, and maybe I could be ya girl
But I can't 'cause we don't
You

Womanizer, Woman-Womanizer, youre a Womanizer
Oh, Womanizer, oh youre a Womanizer, baby
You-you-you are
You-you-you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You got me goin
Youre oh so charmin
But I cant do it
You Womanizer

Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
(spoken) You say Im crazy
I got youre crazy
Youre nothin but a
Womanizer
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah
Boy, don't try to front
I-I know just-just what you are, ah, ah

Womanizer, Woman-Womanizer, youre a Womanizer
Oh, Womanizer, oh youre a Womanizer, baby

WOMANISER!~

-.-

2009-02-11T21:36:00.000-11:00

today was hyperred in class.
its fun
very funn!~

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT!~

nth to say
im just like superrrr happy..

science lesson the most funny one..

teacher brought us to comp lab to do sci on elearning
on SCIENCE
almost like 1/4 of the class go ebuddy msn chat
LOL!~
si bei funny

funnyyy!~

VALENTINES DAY IS COMING!!~!
wishing all those who have bfs and gfs willl stay together
long long time!
and those who are like me carefree and single
kuai kuai zhao ge stead!
muahahahaha
-.-
or want stay single and find a les or gay
muahahahaha
LIKE MEEEE~
-.-
lame lame

but still
happyyyy valentinesssssssss!!!!!~

the taste sucks sialll
what thing thing
bai bai deee
EEEKKKKS!~

ii feell weird without you by my side anymore
after what had happened
the feeling came back to me
and i started to .... you back.
sighh

but i seemed to be super angry when you were around
you caused everything to fall apart
you caused people to get jealous of us
you caused every single relationship to fall apart
im not accusing you
im just trying to like help you
soo yeahh
may not seem like you are flirting butt..
people may think you are.

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see your in my dreams
I see your face it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

Everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see your in my dreams
I see your face it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

why won;t you just notice me when i am just standin in front of you
and your eyes is fixed on another person
what poison have you set on me?
what spell have you cast on me?
im not invisible
im here.
right here, right now.
why won't you just glance at me for a second??
what makes that person soo special but not me???
i am bearing it.
im not trying to let it show
but when the time comes.
i will.

take a look at some pics.

grow up and getta life

cus life sucks as every day, every second goes by
and a second, an hour, a minute, a day nearer
to your death date

i hate you boy

2009-02-10T00:09:00.003-11:00

shut the fuck you bloooooooody bitch
you wanted me to help
how did i ended up uh?
I ENDED UP HURT
I ENDED UP FEELING BETRAYED!~

and you made me end up.
in a very bad state
nobody would trust me
nobody would tell me anything!
nobody would just listen to what i have to say!

i mean hey!
it wasn;t my fault
i SAW you crying
thats why i offered my help
i didnt know that i was that brainless
to let myself END UP in this bloodddyy state!
and i end up getting ignored!
noone would talk to me
they pretended to LIKE me .

hahahahaha
thanks alot girls.
thanks alot YEE CHEONG
thanks alot to other 2 GIRLS!

thanks fucking lots.
i love you guyyyyyys!
let me give you a kiss!

LIKE WHOOOOA!?? im gonona give you likethat!
fuck off my life lah people

I SO HAPPY!!

tham kim chuan call me on the phone lehh!
first time in 2009.
-.-

HE CHANGEEEEEEDDDDDD LOTTSSSS!!!!~
he grew.
150cm still sooo shorttt!!

but he grewwww
shuai! -.-

pri sch korkor
ROCKSS!

now conferenceee
with alvin and kc

muahahaha!! byebye!

2009-02-09T00:31:00.003-11:00

im just keeping everything to myself

hey. i aint that rose anymore.

p5 :

rose was a quiet
and innocent girl.
and seldomly tells people her secrets ((:
wasn't that popular yet xD

purely innocent :/

now , today

im gonna be that girl again
im seriously not gonna talk to boys.
im not gonna fall in love with ANY of them.
i swear
i swear
i swear

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

because i dun love you
thats why
~~cus i already got a crush on another guy~~
but i just wanna be single.
iim not in the mood for anything
im just not
because those words you said girl.
left a deep depression in me
and i doubt i would never talk to you again
because.
you hurt me
way too deeply
i hate you
alot alot
xD

yo bitch
you go around telling everyone that im a FLIRTER!
and now what?
my basketball people say that im a flirter
then later ?
go round other people ah??!

i couldnt concentrate on my fucking game
you changed my mood and everything
saying that im a flirter?
WTF??!
im a flirter.
wow..
when did i flirt eh?
are you still a fren?
SPOILT MY MOOD!~

im gonna be different yeah..
i am gonna be..
and im telling noone NOTHINGGG!!!!!

2009-02-08T20:22:00.001-11:00

~~jealousyyy maybe?~~

ain't sorry for you baby,

but do take good care, im never gonna tell you again,
but for the last time,
~~i think i love you~~

goodbye baby.

2009-02-08T19:37:00.000-11:00

yesterday de shopping with LISHI babe ending
sIOOOOOOOOOO FASTT!

okay lets start by
CUTTING MY HAIR!~

my hair previous!~

yeahs.
maybe one of my zilian zao

but now lehh?
CANNOT EVEN TIE!~
nvm
i told my auntie to cut that short
but still need to tie up
but i cannot
im trying to.

my shirt awfully sucks.
why is that white colour thing popping up?
MY RUBBER BAND!!!
-.-

ystd.
me and lishi walked around JUSCOOOO!
teehee
then we talked and talked

MAIN SUBJECT :

claudia and kellynn

i just wanna give a rounnd of applauseee for AMALINA SYG!~
for scolding clau that is.
for her fucking attitude :X
muahahahahahahahaahahahahahaha!~
-.-

valentine's day is this friday
i gonna spot who will put something under my table
MUAHAHAHAHAH!
of course noone lh!
-.-

i so clever.
can predict.
hah..

lame lahh
lishi soooo chioooo~

so fast de. then need go home liao :X
no funnn~
:S

my bloddy phone sot diao liao.
-.-
even the laptop also lag.
sigh

im not gonna accept you
even if you ask. im so sorry.
cus im just not ready enough
after breaking with him
has brought serious impact on me.
a tought desicion for me
but im sorry.
im just a fucking playgirl
can't accept your love
and i can't afford to lose one
im so sorry
cus i already have someone in mind ((:

am i just crazy?
or is it just a crush??

2009-02-07T16:18:00.003-11:00

back.
will tell you the story of ystd later.
now is homework

but but but..
i gotta tell you

... is soooooo
SHUAI!~
hahahahaha -.-
i have no idea i am talking about but i know
*** so SHUAII!~
-.-

kkays.
im being lame
ending here.
BUAYS!!!

2009-02-06T19:23:00.000-11:00

fuck that!
haha lame lame
-.-

IM BROKE
let me tell ya.
IM BROKE!
when i say broke i have 2 meanings.
and im referring to those 2.
IM LAMME!~

yes. we broke up.
hope he was alright with it.
just broke silently yeahs.
im trully sorry.
because..
i hoped i made the right desicion
:D

IM BROKE.
literally.
I AM BROKEEE!~
heehee
okay lah
i stilll got $10 in my wallet but still.
IM BROKE!~
-.-
lets see

jiaenn owed me $5
and its just my luck to meet her in the bus
HAHAHAHA!~
she lorh
no sense of balance
xP

megan owed me 30cents.
erm that megan from my sec school

okay okay
school was OKAY!
haha
so many okay s :/
had 3 tests today
sobbbbbbbbs
history was average
science was SIMPLEE!
chinese was SUCKK!

i wonder why out of a sudden i am so vulgar
and then somemore im starting to sound more english than singlish
HAHA!
wonder why.

heh. im starting to miss someone lehh.
but i dun like that person ! >< size="1">hey you bloddy mother fucker.
you show me attitude in the morning
i am most welcomed to show attitude back
because i hate people to show me attitude
cus they sucks
want diao me,
hate me?
i thought i apologised?
you mother fucker
mother fucker
mother fucker
bloody fucking sucking mother fucker.
what kind of fucking attitude is this?

我願意不愛你
以後所有快樂傷悲都那麼多餘
我願意不愛你
痛就放在心裡不用關閉不需要痊癒

and
明白我自己，
不能在爱你了。

im changing blogskin.
to navigation. ((:
soo yeahs.
xP

but i duno how to put the fucking song -.-
i sibei lan lorh
nvm
i am clever
so i TRYY!
-.-

heehee.
lame lah -.-
bye bye!~

2009-02-06T18:29:00.004-11:00

LOL!
2 ex talking to me :X
dion seah jie rui
and kaisheng -.-
but.
i prefer talking to dion lorh.
kaisheng siiooo irritating -.-

he has a stead now.
and is still a fucking 2 timer.
HAHAHAHAHHH!
like one girl
at the same time like another girl
~~but im oh so not ready for a relationship with him SUCKER!~~

and freaaakkkkk!~
my auntie has been reading my blog
so now she tell my parents.
so now.
im gonna change my fucking url againnn!~
and sun bian change blogskins okay?

yeahs
went back to ADMPS wushu
i duno sms-ed like
duno how many person.
lemme count.

kahwai, adrian, zhi jun, jun zhi, andy
all never reply
sigh
only one person reply.
dion SEAH!
hahaha

wushu was okay
learnt somemore steps from TOH SHIMIN.
aka cutie PIE!
lOLL!

not funny -.-

but im laughing..
why?
the conver lorh
with kaisheng andd andd andd DION
all my ex.
lols.
i lied to KS that me and dion still steads
hahaha
outdated lah him
stupid right?

then me and dion act act
ahahahaaha!~
nvm
let dion have another day of fun with me
steads for a day uh?
i also dun minddd ! >< style="font-style: italic;">i dun even know if i had made the right desicion to break.
if we had to patch..
it isnt too late ((:
if we had to officially break,
it isnt too late either.
because
everyone seems to say that we are not meant to be
and i am better off with "someone "
and that i am happier single that day.
i dunoo

going malaysia later.
byeee

!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
MUAHAHAHAHA!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
thats himm
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
-.-
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
bleah
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
you guys there?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
dion? kaisheng?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
OIEE. why i the only one talking ?? ><
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
wat
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
i dun want talk to myselff ><
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
huh wat wat happen here after war?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOLL!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
nah. that one my stead lah >>>
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
oh
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
heehee
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
intro lah
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
:X
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
if my sted here good sia
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
my name is dion u can call mi noid and my hobby is to sleep
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
add her in lorh
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
okie done
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LLOOLLLL!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
me is kai sheng
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
dion sot diaaooooo -.-
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
walao. your english fail lah.
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
mis is kaisheng
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i like to play and
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
sec school lehh
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
AHEMMM!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
PLAY?:??!!!!!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
ya la
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
PLAY??!!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
ouh i forgot
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
AHEMMMM!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i like to play wif barbie dolls
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
haaaahh!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
flirt with them
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
:X
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i like to play wif my psp
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
and i am rose ex
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
o.0
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
icic
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
hahahaaaaaaaaa
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
lame lame
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
wat flower u named urself den?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOL!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
he didnt name lorh.
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
nothing
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
o.0
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
only you named :X
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
let me see
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i just call my self kai sheng
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
whoa such flower nothing?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
violet seah jie rui?
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
yeah kinda
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
lol
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
loll.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
and i like to watch AHEM
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
hahaaa
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
watever
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i need to go
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
for?
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
sry lar old ppl like dat one just now throat got something
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
haaa
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
eeyer
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
awhile only.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
as i was saying i like to watch elmo's world
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
cool
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOLLL!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
cool
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
i like spongebob!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i like sponge bob
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
very funny
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
eeyer
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
you copy me
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
NOOOOBB!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i like powerpuff girls
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
really i like
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
i like alsoo
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
the most i like avatar
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
lame
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
o.0
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
i still like bleach and naruto
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
:X
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
thought i nvr watch
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
i got bleach game
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
kage bunshin no jutsu
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
alot violet come out
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
boom
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOL!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
o.0
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
lol
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i g2g bring my sis go tution
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
zz
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
nvm
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
huh..
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
gtg too
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
so FASSTT!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
nononononon
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stay stay ! ><
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
ltr i copy rocklee take off my weight
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
den super sonic speed
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
den bk
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
-.-
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
haha
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
-.-"
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
dats mi as childish as eva
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
you guys can be good frens liao
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
yeahs. can see that.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
sigh
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
from you and lukris. playing what stupid paper balls.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
niklas worst
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
keep succulent
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
niklas kinda a good fren nowadays
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
he very good.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
NICE HOT DOG U HAB DER like dat
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
ystd i smsed him
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
he smsed me first
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
ya
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
then i say i no mood.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
he also suddenly become so good
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
to mi
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
then he say : tell me , i your uncle. got any thing not happy tell me
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
he is very goood!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
ai ya i extra one leave guys alone
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
den mi lukris and him can play untill like mad dogs
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
nono
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
stay
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOL!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i soon g2g liao
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
nooo
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stayyy
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
lol
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stay
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stay!
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
bb
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
NOOOOOOOOOO!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
he go i add backkie. ;X
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i go bring my sis go tution
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stayy.
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
gonna take mi 1hr to return
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
-.-"
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
my mom la
''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! says:
bb leave you couples alone
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
-.-
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
where
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
NOOOO!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stay

''BO LE'' this song ROCKS! has left the conversation.

!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
stay
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
ask mi go she herself over der smoke
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOL!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
funny
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
very funny
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
soooooooooFUNNY!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
wat thing so funny?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
my stomach aching
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
aiya u also not the first time toking to mi
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
no
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
i find it funnnnyy!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
funny meh?
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
yesyes!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
o.0
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
if niklas here
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
can be more funny
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
SERGENT NIKLAS
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
YES SIR!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
SEDI YA!
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
LOL!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
(stamp)
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
then vibrate
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
den end of the universe
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
lol
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
HAAHA!
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
i chuckle onli u noe....
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
whoa see u laugh like so happy like dat lol
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
bb
SIR YES SIR!! LIKE KNOWLEDGE! says:
sms mode
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
lolls.
!! 阿嫔 !！ says:
okay

for you ((:

2009-02-05T22:50:00.000-11:00

yes i should follow me ((:

i think we should just be normal frens .
cus i dun think i can carry on likethis any more ((:
so if you see this you can sms me the ans :D
i know you love me deeply but..
im sorry .
so sorry

and to my papa ; kahwai :

i dun wanna offend you. i dun wanna offend anyone
whats more
you are my papa. and veron's my marmie
i already told you
if ANYONE wants to take you away from her
i will kill that person
how can i let my uncle end up with my marmie?
tell me uh?
i dun wanna quarrel with you
so i hope for those 4 sms i sent to you
will make you understand why i was so afraid.
:D
hope you understand ((:

oh well.
today must CHIONG homework
and must STUDY
last minute
haha.
pro horh?
today seems to be better ((:
after schooooool
went northpoint de library
SOOO COLD!
after that i called lukris to come and help us find
since he had nth to do in school
besides playing that stupid table soccer .
-.-
after finding veron and cherying had to gooooooo~!
before that we keep taking pictures
and i cannot post them cus
LUKRIS SEAH call me not to post.
kill him lah
lol.

after that lukris and niklas keep tickling me
they really did cheer me up
and i wonder whats wrong with ke hui today
she so quiet deeee

but but but but
i know nicklas and lukris keep playing
infected by me
cus we keep tickling
then me and kehui run away
but still
they managed to find us
then me and her were like so pekchek -.-

we go eat KFC that time.
nicklas was the one who ate a set meal
while me ,cherying and lukris only ate fries and whipped potato
and he finished earlier than us
SIAO!

kaisheng:
dun trick me lah
you so unattractive
of course no stead de lah
must be lying. say you got stead
fake de lah .
LOLLL!

cannot believe you LOLLLL!~

really i cant believe you
heeheeheehee

sian lah
i cannot post lukris de picture up here
cus he look DAMN funny de.
but if i post
he will post mine on internet
waaaalaoooo
go tou tou take me
EEEE

today seem to be okay

but i just have to say sorry.
a big sorry
to someone..

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把愛割舍
我不能睡

2009-02-04T21:08:00.000-11:00

MARCUS TAN YU KAIII
haha
my best didi everrr~
he today
walked me home
and treated ICE PACK TO ME!
wakakakaka
he so good
i say i want milo
he go buy
he also want
in the end the guy say only left with one
then he say you take milo.
i take others.
SOOOO GOOOOOOD!
haha
thanks
he walked me home when he can take another route
siau
but thankie himmmm!

and he cheered me up
lots.

and hey people
to my secondary school frens lah.
you say i changed
right?
today. i quiet and mean to everyone
WTF.
hey that is me
THAT ISSSS ME
how many times must i say that?
i dunwanna be that fucking crazy girl
i wanna be that cheebye girl can?
SMILEEE!
fake smile?hah!
shut your fuckass mouth
im this vulgar girl
I CRIED SO WHAT??!
i miss my pri school frens
i didnt get to see kc, tsaqib, atika they all
during CNY
do you know HOW much i miss them
when i looked at my folder of my pri school frens?
i then realised how much i missed them
you guys keep asking who is this
and i explained their characters and things
and i started realising how much i miss them
and ..
him; my ex ((:
i dun regret breaking
heehee
thats why i tell people
i rather being single .
yeahh

will stop here!!!!!! byebye!

2009-02-03T23:32:00.000-11:00

stop copying me whatever i do.
sigh

i was walking home after school
saw MUTTON! mathan -.-
and suddenly thought of gregory.
then walk walk walk
saw rabbani
thought of greg again
DUN GET THE WRONG IDEA!
seriously
i do miss him
i mean.
HE IS MY CRAZY PARTNER!
though he can be like..
hackcare to those type of girl girl stuff.
he still lends a listening ear
and be HORNY with me
and the BEST BEST BESST partner i ever had
the BEST BEST BEST BEST team member i ever had
the BEST BEST BEST BEST horny fren i ever had
and the BEST BESST BEST BEST funniest person i ever had
and the bestest class joker i ever had
who always made me laugh
though we fight at times and
you often beat me and i beat you back
haha
i missed him..
alot.
cus its like
without a funny partner
and im used to sitting with guys!
it feels all weird
i no longer feel happy
i no longer feel freedom
i no longer feel warmth
i no longer feel care
i dun mind getting scolded
cus we get scolded together
i dun mind
but what i mind is that.
having those 6endurance
or my beloved frens who had been through for me
LIKE ..
REAL FRENS!
and not being treated like a scapegoat?
i mean
im not saying my sec school frens are bad or anything.
but. yeah..
you know what i mean right?
~~even i feel weird with my stead~~

sigh
please stop asking my qn.
AND I JUST HATE NIKLAS!
for one reason
haha
me and lukris play play got prob ah??!
we tickle tickle only mah
likethat also call molest
very normal lorh
in pri school i also likethat what.
stupid right?
then veron say its molesting
i mean.
like
he TOUCH me
-.-
so?
i also got touch him
i got touch niklas. i got touch who who -.-

one day i will faint de lorh

BBALLLL!
heeehee
loveeeeeeeeeeee the peeeposs!
haha
lame
-.-
sooo im ending here
BYE BYE!

2009-02-02T00:16:00.003-11:00

i just vomited .
duno why. now not feeling well
sigh
today keep getting sickk.
after running 2 rounds of outside SCHOOL!
i felt giddy.
dun believe, ask veron, ke hui or cherying
i almost fell while climbing the stair....

unbalanced
im not talking much today
i just kept feeling sick lorh
headache...
sian
then bball training was relaxing and funny

yeahs.
today was SIAU!
got geog test
i go study english test
FUCKKKK! -.-
then cheat lah of course!
-.-
bad right?
i know heehee

tmr then ENGLISH!
and i havent to eng homework yet
so doing later lorh

我对你的太都，
一天比一天差。
可是现在我知道了
问题是在我身上，
那。。。
我还是不知道我该做什么。

now my post will be happy happy de
cus i got one private blog lerh
AND NOONE IS ALLOWED TO GO IN!
but but
if you are lucky enough,
you may get into it one day ((:
WAIT LONG LONG!~ :X

so bye bye!

die lerh lah
i getting more camwhore this few days :X

2009-02-01T18:15:00.000-11:00

i go out happy dee.
now come back angry and disappointed de
okay
i shall start about my trip to mrs lim's house
i thought there was only 3 ppl going
whch is me, tris and zoeee
how i know
i reach amk got one girl
this year pri6 de
our junior
then mrs lim say wait for awhile
how i know
later the next train a whole group.
not group
*ahem*
A WHOLE CLASS!
last year 5challenge de
this year 6CH lah
its fun
but we only seniors
then tristen ah.
hornier than ever
LOL!
he go ther see pretty girls bah
LOL!
even the girls say he gay
cus he wear pink colour mah
-.-
then go her house
quite nice de
but too many ppl too squeezy
hehe
then her living room got samuel
give her de toy
haha
cute sial
its fun fun there!
then got angbao
eheehee
then went to amk hub
thats when..

THAT NEWS BURST!
hais
nvm
i wun talk about it
i just hope that that matter would rest!

nvm
im making another blog
try going in lorhh
http://itsall-complicating.blogspot.com

heehee
try going in eh.
xD

sighhhhhh

im not in the mood to post liao
i just have LOTS of fun at mrslim's house
and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRISTEN KIAN YONG REN!
hehee

hope today's " kicking " and" punching" by zoee can be the
BEST present ever for you
loll.
and contiune to be that joker and horny person in pri school ohkey?
heehee

ending here
byebye((:

~~dear,sometimes , we should just let things go. and forget it ((:~~

2009-02-01T13:01:00.001-11:00

BEEP BEEP!
announcement people!
so PAY BIG ATTENTION!
thanks
-____-ll
im only speaking to 4I' 2006 de people.
we are going to mrs lim de house TODAY!
if you wanna go.
or if you see this in the early morning.
please meet me, tris and ZOE! at the MRT station at 9am SHARPP!!
thanks...
-.-

im not stating the reason why
cus im TIRED and lazy!!
haha

well.
i was thinking and reading posts
to put it short lets say i was blog hopping.
((:
and lots of post were about
ME
xD
im so famous.
well. yeah.
dun get into trouble when you know you are going to
dun get into the wrong things when you are not prepared
you will end up hurting yourself.
take my advice
you haven't learnt how to walk,
dun learn how to fly
carry own with your basic life
and it will come to you automatically
when the time is right
so dun be like me
because you will be giving a great responsibility
like me
and become suffering in darkness
because noone, no medicine can cure you

so people.
if you don't have a relationship yet,
take my advice yeah.
love will come to you when the time is right
your prince or princess will come to you
one final day
but maybe not now.
maybe later..
so i mean.. yeah..
just don't put yourself into trouble and letting things affect you
hurting yourself isnt't the only way .
so..
just carry on with your life
try putting yourself in my shoes.
and think again
there may be shuai ge and or chiobu or all that
but..
are you sure that they will like you?
no matter how hard you jio them?
maybe they already have a crush or something?
im not gonna contiune anymore
or i'll be like a grandma nagging xD

im ending here so byee~

and to HIM
im not accusing that you are not good or anything
you are okay
but.
i duno.
seems like you are not the right one for me ehy?

2009-01-31T20:51:00.000-11:00

don't claim to know it all
I've had some wins I've had some falls
The road is long and time is short
I don't wanna spend too much time in thought
I don't intend to play it safe
I've gotta move to find my place
I wasn't born for small talk crowds
I know what I want and its not in this town
I don't wanna just survive
I'm gonna hit the road I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

Everything I said I meant, nothing comes by accident
I'll change my name, change my face
To want something better is no disgrace
I'm just following the signs
Keep my eyes ahead I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

I've come a long way
I see the light of day
I think I've found the answers I'm looking for
And there ain't no reason
For turning back, its just one life
I'll play the hand I've got
I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

vanessa hudgens - drive ((:

well..
life is full of ups and downs ((:
and yeah...

ending here
bye :D

2009-01-31T19:12:00.003-11:00

yeah
just came back from wushu
dead tired
dead
dead
dead
dead
TIRED
but jia xuan ( jiaenn's sister) went
she sioooooooooo CUTEEE~ ><
yeah seriously
i love wushu
damn lots
though i slack lah
but but but
i really wanna go for competition lorh
i comfirm can win de haha :X
i want kong lao shi teach me jiang sai chang quan
then go for competition cus i have the talent! HAHA! -.-
really i seriously loveee wushu
i love it more than bball
but my school no wushu T.T
so i hope coach can give me more training
and put me in the competition heeheee
COMPETE WITH SHI MIN!

but i confirm lose -____-lll
diao diao
no mood

still
no good
rachel today eat wrong medicine
keep want to take photo
sigh i call her take her own zi lian zhao
she dunwan

i demo lerh
she also dun wan in the end.
im there taking my own zilian zhao! HAHAHA! -.-
-.-

TOMMORROW'S TARGETT:
- wake up
- go MRS LIM DE HOUSE BAI NIAN WITH AMALINABABE!
- and i duno what will happen next...

-________-llllll

well.
primary school frens never fail to cheer me up yeah.
SAD LAH
leonard , nadiah, amalina not online
and rachel noob think she sleeping ah?
soo. sad lah noone talk to me?
weell.
at least got jiamin and FATINNNN NAJIBAH!
haha primary school frens uh..

cant turn back time yeah. thats right well...
i just have to say..

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MY
BELOVED KORKOR
TRISTEN KIAN YONG REN!
wish you well in sec school ((:

AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TOOOO
FATIN BABEEE!!!

must stay strong no matter where you go worh ((:

soo..
nth much uh..

she rather suffer by herself
than letting the other party suffer((:

reply tagss!

cheryingg--->> heehee. finally you tagged back :X
JASMINE---> hmm, someone told me that someone teased her. haha okay lah. dun tease you liao okay? and thanks ((: point taken heeheeh -.-
LEONARD---> HAHAHAAHAHA! my cousin very goood mahh .
pro sial sheee! so better consider her worh X:
NADIAH---> soo good. you got FIDIL ;P yeah. you too syg!
JOEY---> thanks((:
DION---> sorry... i cant . x.x

2009-01-30T21:09:00.000-11:00

2nd post of the day

i was thinking.
it always bugged me
so sighh

i never expected myself to get a stead so quickly
i was expecting to get a stead in mid year or something
cuus we dun know each other.
well.
somemore im his first.
first stead.
well me?
sigh
i didnt expect
to meet this kind of frens
this kind of people
looking back.
i was thinking
and laughing at myself.
what have you become?
playgirl ah you rose?
look at yourself in the mirror
you where got chio?
you where got cute?
you where got cool?
LOOK carefully
you arent good
you are NOT good for anyone
you are just a useless POS
look CAREFULLY
you are not good for anyone
having a stead?
dream on
someone deserves him more than YOU DO!
rather be single uh..
idw to regret.
i hope i wunt uh.

im returning..

IM CHANGING MYSELF.
im no longer that crazy freakkkk
im NOT GONNNA BEEE!

i'll force..

i hate myself.
and i will be that girl

whom noone used to know..

~~i cried my way home , while walking my walk home~~

cus i slashed myself.
using my fingernails .
((((((((((((((:
and i doesnt have a scar
thats a good thing.
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
heeheee

2009-01-30T19:50:00.000-11:00

school..
officially..
sucks.

i hate school
i hate school
i hate school
i hate school.

cus it officially sucks ((:

i shall reply his answer here...

question : am i being a bad boy?
answer : maybe? maybe not? dunooo!

question : then why do you wanna break with me? to submit me to ****??
answer : maybe, maybe not.. not sure :D

question : i dunt want!! T.T
answer : i dun give a hackcare to it =DDD

~~i didnt say i was gonna reply honestly xP~~

i know im acting weird nowadays
everyday seems to be like hell.
but hey.

no need to pei he me whatever i do right?

suan le bah

today is the WORST day of my life.
reccess.
wanna thank ke hui..
me mood no good.
she still took the patience to accompany me
and bear with all my anger and frustration
thanks for being a listening ear
though i just kept talking and talking
and protecting me from a bee
LOLLL!
cus i got stung before.
thanks...
alot.
love you lots lots.
:P

so fuck deee
got on the wrong bus
stuck in the middle of nowhere
when i found that i was in sembawang ROAD!
and i didnt know where to go.
fuck
then i anyhow walk
duno walk till where
then saw sun plaza
haha
then took MRT home
and now im back ((:

sigh...

mood not good.
take wrong bus.
thinking of breakup
CAN ANYTHING GET ANY WORSE??
fuck fuck fuck!
frens?
cherying said
WEEK 4 ONLY!
then got quarrell liao.
WHAT THE FUCK?!!
yeah. i admit.
I MISS MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRENS!
they cheer me up.
i angry.. they cheer me up. with jokes.
not motivational talks
I HATE SECONDARY SCHOOL!!
i hate everyone
bitches and bastards.
yeah..
i walked 2 ROUNDS
TWO COMPLETE rounds around the first level.
ALONE
and in the end..
i made up my desicion.
and asked.....
so?
now?
i replied
sigh
nvm
well something to say...

HEY BITCH!

sorry i have to call you that...
so sorry.
i know i HATE to offend people
but i have to.
my mood today is totally NOT good.
YOU WANT TO DIE IS IT?
tell me you wanna commit suicide?
GO DIE LAH!
see how you die.
im sure you kiasi de lah
stupid sial.
you have TOO many crushes.
you know why everyone dun want to talk to you?
BECAUSE
they are showing there true colours.
FYI
NOONE LIKES YOU!
they are just acting
now they know what you are doing.
BECAUSE THE FACT IS YOU ARE A BETRAYER
you are trying to still away people from you
nononono not people
OTHER PEOPLE'S STEAD!
and they like you
because
of your flirtish attitude
say me look at you so fierce?
i thought you were a good person?
i tried to bear with your attitude
NOW?
BETRAYING?
whats next uh?
backstab ah?
1E8 never see me so angry before right?
use violence and vulgarities.
oh as if you never see a feng puo likethat
now i letting him to you
since you say you have ALOT of crush.
i know one of them is HIM
and probably one of the reason of breaking is another reason -.-
sucks sucks sucks
of course he will like you lah
so many ppl like you
now i know the girls are calling you bitch cus of your
FLIRTISH fucking attitude
wan die?
i wun stop you
go bah
i know you a beast
cus you are one
so you better watch out
when i really blow off one day
watch out
cus you dun like to see how angry i would be..
dun cry to me
cus i dun LIKE to offend people

hehehehe

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating (on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

Oh I believe Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

thanks leonard.
thank you LOT LOT!
heheeee
i think the best guy fren in sec 2 i known?
haha
for cheering me up
ehy.
consider my cousin .
haha
and and and
you call her short and flat one more time i come kill you
i take knife stabb you ah!
she not short okay.
she almost same height as me liao.
bleahhh!
should be you flat bah
HEHEEE!
-.-
lmaooo

im all geared up for the weekend.
my target:
study,
sleep,
eat
breathe.
hahahahahahaha
-.-.

actually.
you suit better with gina...
((:
fyi..
im a playgirl.
i lied
heehee ((:

im not honest

2009-01-29T23:43:00.001-11:00

today's post uh?

want me post?
i posted..
yeah

i have noooooooooooo mood to talk.
so SHUDDAUP!

im confused
im confused
im annoyed
im annoyed
SO LEAVE ME ALONE THANKS!!!!

fuck......
leave me alone

我真失败！！！

2009-01-29T01:41:00.003-11:00

I...

hate..

SECONDARY SCHHOOOOLLLLLLLLLL
so much

i miss my old friends
i miss my class
i miss my old classmates
i miss my old schoolmates
i miss my table
i miss my chair
i miss my locker
i miss the school's toilet
as it has always been my favourite hideout

what is miss most is...

the happy memories i shared with 6endurance
and how my teachers protected me
when i got in deep trouble..

i hate my sec school
i hate my frens
i hate everything
i hate the food
i hate the uniform
i hate just..
everything..

i hate i hate i hate!

i miss and i love...
6endurance
and 6 integrity ; my chinese class.
i miss jordan
honestly.
i do miss him ; my crazyyyy partner
the one and ONLY person whom i can talk to in class.
cus bei lin like nvr talk de.
then everytime me and jordan get scolded together
so what if jordan likes me?
he has a crush on me but i dunt.
i like him as a friend, as a sister.
now he in siling sec
only saw him last friday.
then keep chatting
gawd damn
i missed him
lots.
YVONNE CHOO TOO!
:D
i miss nadiah and amalina moreee.
amalina; i miss your muffins and BROWNIESS! haha
-.-
lame
and i miss my teachers.
mr oh. haha.
yeah. i do miss him
but i miss mdm sng MORE!
but i dun miss mdm lim -.-

lame

I HATE SECONDARY SCHOOL!
i miss my juniors.
i miss my classmates
i MISS MY SENIORS TOO!
T.T

i just..
dun like sec school..

sigh

im such a letdown

2009-01-28T20:12:00.000-11:00

lets dun talk about new year in malaysia okay?
IT IS DREADFULLLL!
simply a nightmare to ME and 2 of my uncles.
1 lost car keys.
and unable no drive it back to singapore.
and it is very FREAKKKK!
then the WHOLE family searched the WHOLLE kampung
in the end.
bo luck -____-lllll
another one
the previous night drunkkkkkkkkkk
then lost RM 400
me lehh?

KENNA SCOLDED BY MY AUNTIES EVERY SINGLE TIME I TALK TO THEM!
even my mother never help me
trust me
its like HELLLLLLLLL!
fuck lah
fuck
fuck
fuck
cheebye
cheebye!
WTF LAH!

sigh
dun want talk bout that liao
talk about it will angry de okay.

school was school.
yeahs.
only that wtf home eco lesson sucks
we al bring the apron and such
then say only need workbook
then say is next week then bring
hais.
now mood not good.
so...
yeah.
leave me alone before i blow up..
so today just a short short post.
and as promised.
my SHOEE!
-.-

tadaaa~

lets end here then
bye bye!

i gotta shout. so sorry.
I GOTTA SHOUT!
I DUN WANNA SHED ANOTHER TEAR
I DUN WANNA THINK OF MY PAST
I REGRET ALOT.
THIS CNY FEELS SO UNLIKE WITH YOU AUNTIE!
AND I REALLY DUNO WHAT TO DO WITHOUT YOU
PLEASE.
I DUN WANNA REGRET
AND

FATIN!
MY JUNIOR..
MY BELOVED JUNIOR
I DUN WAN YOU TO END UP LIKE ME
THIS FUCKING HERE BLOGGING
PLEASE DUN END UP LIKE HER
THIS FUCKING BITCH HERE.
PLEASE!!!!!
I LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS.
DUN HURT YOURSELF
YOU GOT ME AND I GOT YOU
YOU JUST DUNT KNOW
HOW BAD I FEEL ACTUALLY
BECAUSE..
I JUST CANNOT TRUST ANYONE RIGHT NOW!
msn.
you told me this

Im not a friend who choose friends (:
Now , ure not alone.
U still got me (:
When a person judge you.
Ignored them.
Act like as if , they're invisible.
act like as if , a ghost is trying to make u cry
and , go to a place where u can shout
SHOUT OUT LOUD
tht no one can hear you (nt in school uh)
SHOUT AND U WILL FEEL BETTER .
like me , i got a secret place where i shout , i feel much better my dear.
So , think ok .
Think positively.
and rose.
its no used to act cool anymore.
Its making you a worth-it life.
Making ur life ur own life miserable.
So , say to urself.
I can do it , i can do it.
One day , ure doing it .

FATIN MY DEAR..
thanks lots
love you lots lots.
no matter what age you are.
i still treat you as young adults.
same age as me.

sec school frens.
i have to say
dun see me like that loud loud
im just acting chio
im just acting cute
IM JUST ACTING!
im just acting BLUR
im just acting as if i really am cool
IM JUST ACTING EVERYTHING
im not gonna be popular
what benefit are you gonna get?
being loud?
what can you get?

what can i get?
tell me uh.
guys.....

im just a total freak
leading her own fucking life.
wanna see the real me?
try me .
try me.
im gonna be silent.
im silent
im quiet
im not loud
i keep EVERYTHING to myself.
till what?
till i blow..

im not in the total mood to talk
cus i dun even know if i was acting to love him
or am i really in love.
OR WHAT????!
chee bye
who do i really love
WHO ARE THERE FOR ME?

the answer is...

noone...

silent..

2009-01-28T00:05:00.002-11:00

you told me
you had a dream
exactly what i was thinking of.
are you a mind reader?
or was it a dream.
no
for you it WAS a dream
for me..
i was a thought

seems like this day would come true
heeheee

2009-01-26T14:14:00.000-11:00

at least we are kinda.
talking.
im happy already.
not in person
but in msn!
better than not talking..
~~and rachel, it all seemed to be true.~~
i mean.
at least she replied.
and im happy enough ((:
yeah..
thats probably what i mean.

and i just shouted at my mother during CNY
what did i shout?

she was combing my hair into a new hairstyle
then she want to clip my fringe
then i suddenly shout,
DONT TOUCH MY FRINGE!
what happened in the end?
i didnt get scolded ( a good thing)
she just didnt touch my fringe and left me alone!
-___________-lll

okay
let my just post some pictures.
or rather 2?
or more.
okay.
rachel say want pictures.
so i post some of my zi lian and my sisters can?
muahahaha
so rachel wunt kill me
haha~
and i will post some nadiah and me pictures.
since i have not much time.
hahahaha -.-
talk crap lah rose

YAY! my PC suite is working!
oh and.
i will be posting repeated pictures but EDITED!
i better use the comp long long time
before going to m'sia
there no connection one T.T
stuppppiddd~
somemore if got connection no comp there
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN!
no self picture of my 2nd sis.
she dun like take picture
so dun have her pic T.T
sian sian sian sian

okay i will just post some pictures.
..
....
.....
FINE!
enough!
i gonna use a stupid skin firsst.
TEMPORARILY!
sigh sigh~

okay what did i wear today?
lets see...
THIS! and i will not expose myself of course.
inside just wear a plain tee..
of..

TADAAA~
cameraaas!
-.-
and my shoe ah..
havent take photo yet but but but!
will show till i come back~
muahahaha!
and
i miss them!
i love themmmm!~
GAHHHHH!
BEEPPPP!~
wait
anna is missing.
so i add 2 more people,
windy and lishi!!!!
such a sad thing
LISHI YOU ALWAYS NEVER SMILE TO THE CAMERA DEE!
okay lets put moreee
HAHAHAHAHA!
this is on my frige -.-
lame lame
weeeeeee~
still .
she is my BEST buddy
and some funny pictures of my and my sisters.
this pic sucks shit
hahahahaha!
i love mei mei damn damn damn damn lots!!~
the best sister.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
nadiah and me again~
heheeee
okay okay

im going to malaysia NOWWWWWWWWWWW!
so bye byee!
tagboard colour will change next time ((:
TAGS REPLY!
will wait till next time
heehee
byebye~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-01-26T05:04:00.000-11:00

3...
2...
1..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR WORHH!

yayyy~
another new year

happy NIU year ! -.-
walao
i stopped replying tags ah?
so bad de me? -.-

nvm
i reply in the tagboard

next time?
nonononon
TMR!~
okay okay
i gtg SLEPPP!

become a pig back liaooo.

so BYE BYEEEEEEEEE!

2009-01-25T18:11:00.000-11:00

once again
i failed to change blogskin

PLEASE PEOPLE!
recommand me nice de.
haha
-.-

cus this blogskin really not gooooood.
sian

so i gtg bye bye!

everything for myself
im gonna let it blow.
and not gonna tell ANYONE!

2009-01-25T16:41:00.000-11:00

i duno if i can trust you anymore
i dun even know if i can to anyone
whats more...

i dun even know if you love me anymore..
are you toying with my feelings?
or am i just imagining things.

but still...
do you love me with all your heart?
because i just don't get it

2009-01-24T19:05:00.000-11:00

i cant trust you
i cant
she wasnt just a fren
she wasnt just a best fren
DUN BREAK MY MOOD CAN YOU?
i never can...

THANK YOU LISHI!
i love you so much
thanks what?
thanks for reminding me.
hehehehe

i just remembered.
before she went yesterday.
she told me something
" remember, to spend more times and treasure your frens more than your relationships.
dun end up like last time with kaisheng,
frenship fights"
thanks thanks.
because.
i will lose control.
did i?
im still that me
but i changed abit i have to admit ((:
but i haved not changed as MUCH as someone has changed.
hehe
thanks lishi
i will remember that
FOREVER!

and lets goo BACKKKKKK TO MORNING!
woke up...
do things
smsed rachel
muahahaha
last night me and tristen sms
very very very -____-lll
i said msged him :
HIHI! i so sian muahahaha!. come disturb you
chat chat??

he replied:
i sleeping.......

WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLL?!
i so cheerful siallll.
then he reply me till likethat
haha
jkjk
i not angry ..
i VERY ANGRY
haha
no lah
i still got rachel to sms !
HAHAHAHA!
-.-
windy cannot.
T.T
later her sms bao
die

okay la
now WUSHU!
lets talk about training first.
SLACKKKKK!
hahahahaha! -.-

all seniors went.
except.
amanda ( she of course wunt come de mah!!!! ) and..
that....
girl.
~~my life is imperfect without her~~
hehe
me, rachel, jiaenn, ivory, sharon, shimin, pearlyn and shu wen went

all i can say is that.
me and rachel
slack slack and slack
hehehehe~
RACHEL YOU NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOB!~
hahahahaahaha
-.-
i also duno why
i learnt from her de
she say me noob i say back lorhhh!
actually took quiet alot of pictures.
so i think upload today ah?
okay lah
but i upload to laptop first.
muahahahaah!~
basically
the juniors were CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE~
very funny
coach carry them do lion things de thingy
tired liao dun want do lerh
they all go run around and crowd him
then help him massage and all.
LOLLL!~
but FYI!
the pictures i took are blur somehow
after that coach have a mini party for US!
he bought bak kua
and sweets
marshmallows.
AND OTHERS!
but then the seniors ( us) need to serve the juniors.
LOL!
but NVM!~
we got tou chi
hahahahaha -.-
we are such good seniors.
lols.

really yummy food
hehe
after that .
HAD TO TAKE PICTURES.
were held back my kong lao shi
CLERISSAA SOOOO CUTE DE!
she everytime make us laugh one.
we all seniors laugh till stomach ache
lols.
i got my blogskin ready
wil do it tmr
cus mum's nagging
so i post pics now.

lazy copy paste down the pics
so glance on the top -.-

im a happy kid.

NOTT!

2009-01-24T02:16:00.003-11:00

internal injury.
hais...

happy happy day day!
was spoilt somehow
cant stop thinking of her...

come back to me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?!

~~i wonder if i can talk to you again~~

will change blogskin tmr ((:

2009-01-23T23:41:00.004-11:00

im not in the mood to post right now.
im sick somemore
having headache and stomachache
my head is giddy

and im really not in the mood
seriously..

i try my best not to use vulgarities
okay??

okay i will try to talk happy things.
school was school.
had to do the stupid attendance
and so on..
had CNY convert.
yeahs
i think last year was the BEST

went back to school
hadda rush
DM hold us back
stupid
then run run run
reached school

first one to shout at me..
i havent even reach gate

" ROSE " " ROSE!"

NADIAHHHHH AMALINAAA!!!!!
my BAOBEIIII!
we just ran into each other
and HUGGGED!
soooo long liao
nadiah became CHIO
amalina became BLACK!
haha
but still
their personalities didnt changed
STILL LOVE EACH OTHER

back to school
KEEP SEEING PEOPLE
HUG HUG!~
walaoooooooooo!~
even took photos with nadiah and amalina
they so fast go home deee
T.T

i know i look freaking weird in this pic
but it is the nicest we 3 ever took
muahahahaha

amalina- evergreen sec
nadiah- woodgrove sec
ROSE- yishun sec

muahahahaha
ILOVEYOU YOU 2 MY DARLINGS!~
more than DION
muahahahaha
cus im a les remember ?
-.-
lame lame

and took photograph with FITHRI!
yayyyy~

i know i look weirder
heehee

yeahs
and annabelle ng!
you late ahh?!
lolls.
then saw SHARON ONG!~
heehee
tmr going back wushu

but someone i met . or rather 2....
changed damn lots.
but hey.
do i look like a total stranger or enemy to you?
you were my BEST fren... how can you?
i totally am disappointed in you..
and sad ....

went to eat macdonaldssssss!
with rachel, jiaenn, windy and lishi

lishi had to leave early
sad
ME JEALOUS!
weilun, david grown taller!
clau alsoooooo~
eeeeeeeeee!
i that short ah?

CB!~
haha
then they went to my house
tristen ah..
hahaaaaaa
he sick
or puberty?
heehee
tristen no change
still that horny kid
AND VERY JIAO HUA.
take my handphone ah

hais..
then basketball
stomach pain
alvin , david and tristen the basket ball very good
marcus like still maintain?
but he improved abit
cus he no longer solo that much lerh

play till late??
lukris and dion went homie first.
then after that contiuned to play
i play awhile rested.
cus suddenly thought of something
went homie.
kept thinking
suddenly felt giddy

but nvm
i still can walk walk
((:

today's post is long
and im making it longer.

lukris---> my uncle
dion---> my ah gong
vannessa----> my great great great grandma
nicklas---> maria
Aravin---> fatimah
KAHWAI----> DADDYYYY!
VERON---> MOMMMYYY!
atikah---> dog! heehee. female -.-

still finding more .
my auntie i forget.
hahaahahahahaha -.-
MY FAMILY TREE!
haha -.-
want know more
go too.
http://www.notimeforthisshit.blogspot.com/
hahahaha
-.-
or or!

http://www.atika-alisa.blogspot.com/

byebye

reply tags first

mahyida---> you at wrong place, not here idiot.
dion--->sorry but i cant afford to do that.

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

i am truly disappointed in you
i called you
you diao me
what kind of fucking attitude are you showing me?
YOU ARE MY BEST FREN!
on the chinese side
you are my BEST FREN!
and how can you?
i really duno what to say to you
just now me and rachel talking on the phone
she said she was expecting ME to change
ROSE , the one who changed ..
but i didnt expect it was you
cus you were that hardcore girl
with that never say die attitude
but now...
you are acting more like a BIMBOOO!
i have to admit
you are a bitch
i really am disappointed in you
i went to see you and said HI!
you diao me
i asked you something
you didnt reply me and contiuned talking to clau
WHAT THE FUCK LAH YOU!
cheebye .
then i changed subject
DIAO ME AGAIN IS IT?
walao
i duno why
you changed until so kaobei kaobu de
i know
i changed myself too
i changed into..
more vulgar
and such
but i think
my attitute towards people are still the same
only that my words i use is abit more vulgar
and horny only.
im no longer that loudspeaker
your reaction to me
i was just so speechless.
you were that girl
when we call you go eat
you confirm say yes de
now?
clau here clau there
what about us?
at least clau got talk to me
you?
cheebye .
me and rachel talked on the phone
not even i thought you changed
rachel and windy also think you changed!
OBVIOUSLY!
you are a BIMBO!
knnbccb!
i have not choice
but to tell you
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!

because i almost cried when i heard your news about you
THE NEW YOU
in sec school.
i was soooo sad ..
how can you????
no point complaining about you here
i cant take it anymore..

girl..
i loved you so much
you treated me.
i havent repay you much
and this is how you...
do this?
please come back with us?
with me, rachel, jiaenn and windy??
we 5 everytime hang out together de?
my bubble tea fan?
my partner?
where has she gone to??
pls come back..

and i duno if i loved you anymore
cus you hurt me internally
and alternally.
cheebye

you dun need to give a hackcare about it
cheebye
i welcome you..

and i will keep everything
to myself
and NEVER to tell anyone
ever again..

2009-01-22T00:10:00.003-11:00

hahahahaha
today is superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr crazy
music lesson
i sing twinkle twinkle little star
went SIAOOOO!
deeeeeeeee siaooo!
then had receessss~
recess
i duno why lehh
everytime ah
my 1E8 class will assemble at the 2 tables there de
then we all chat chat
DUNO WHY TODAY RECESS SO DAMN COLD DEE!
really its cccooolllllllldd~~~
then dion still can play so fun with zhi kai
while me lehh?
STILL SINGING LIAN AI DA REN!
so old liao that song
but i still addicted to it
MUAHAHAHAHA!
-.-
then all the girls keep laughing
I DANCE MAH!
nan de righttt??
ya i know
HAHA!~

chinese lesson
me and cherying laugh alllllllllllll the way.
chinese teacher take off her jacket.
then she soooooo xing gan
AS IFF!
i dun wan talk about the thing
later teacher see ah
I KENA AGAIN LAH!
yeahs
so must becareful
haha
walao
but i have say that teacher very guailan
-.-
im using vulgarities again
haha
duno lah
nowadays i keep saying cheebye
if not is fuck
if not is BAI CHI!
cheebye
-.-

was laughing non stop deeee.
then got maths
after that english
english went totally SIAU AGAINN!~
then history
I LOVE HISTORY THE MOST LORH!
everytime rosydi and that teacher make joke joke
LOLL!~
laugh till stomachache
seriously.
then after school.
LUNCHHHH~
haha
had siiooo much funnnn!~
and then had bball.
tiring but funnn~
today is the mr tan coach us dee.
then got released early
then go see dada play chess~
their chess no coach de.
GOOD LORH~
is free free de.
-.-
kkay
end here bahhh~
tmr CNY CELERBRATION WHO GOING BACKKIE?
me!
-.-
so seeeeeeeee you tmr!~

atika----> you say de ah!
DION----> hihiiiii~ love you too. woah you wake up so early.
ANNA----> sure sure ((:
DION---> heehee. thnks ai ni too xD

2009-01-21T20:33:00.000-11:00

today seems a big shock to me.
cus my parents totally objects me to be in a relationship
TOTALLLLYYY!
and im not lying
you can ask veron OR dion
i told them before.
handphone kena..
siau
lucky not only me
muahahaha

noticed that kah wai and lukris are kinda good frens lorh
cus we all 4 kena
LOL!
veron ah veron...
dun need to worryy deee~
YOU AND GINA LUCKY!
lol lame

just now i went to the toilet .
i imagined me and lelia stand together.
REALLY LOOK ALIKE MEHH?
she and jiamin like more alike lehh
no lah we 3 look alike okay?
ANDY LAU!
i am rose
she is lelia
i am not lelia
i am taller abit !
she is chio-er
understand ? -.-
lame lame

lols.
okay then was having english
RELIEF TEACHER!
so lucky
cherry comeee!
then i pei her walk walk around the school
NOT LOITER!
only only..
ask the basketballers what shirt size and etc.
cus she captain mah
cherry quite good de shee.
she chiooo
then we keep talking
then i like forgotton what will happen after school lerh
i duno why
everytime with my basketballers
esp the seniors
and cherry the captain.
i very happy de.
not once sad sad de.
I SOOOO HAPPY THAT I GOTTEN INTO BBALL!
and i nvr once regretted.
muahahahahaa!
then cherry say dun wan go back class so early
then we play play go find the sec2 de.
HAHA
siao siau!
but fun!
and i tell you first ah
THE TRAINING TEE I DUN WANT PINK!
that whoever say want pink i gonna kill you
haha jkjk
pink ah
who wants?
lol .
im abit mean but sorryy!

and i totally aam freak
after school gave me shock
was telling veron and gina something
then almost cried.
cus i was really thankful to all the teachers lorh
who helped me
((:
who saved me!!!

then after that happy happy.

MR YUENG YOU SOOOOO GOOD DEE!
hehe
go home
HAPPPY HAPPY
and relieved.
muahahaha
then go buy icecream
dun let my sisters know
LOL!
okay happy happy mooodiieeee!~

muahahaha! problem settled lerh worh!
but i cannot count how many cheebyes i said in class.
and how many fuck i scolded people
LOLLL!
ANDY LAU! xiao boy boy cannot scold bad word also!
-.-
lame lame
its been long since
ILOVEYOU MY LAOGONGGGGG!
* muackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkz*
-.-
lame lame
and soo EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYER! -.-
to me..
NOT!
hshshshshshhshshshshshshshshshshshsw!
leelia my twin sister barh
LOL!
jkjk
okay should end here
BYE BYE~

please dun say that you are not good.
YOU ARE THE BEST TOO MEEEEEEEE~
-.-
found out something
everytime i stead is people shorter than me!
AHHHHHHHHH!
but duncare.
as long as we love each other can liao right?
you dao liiii!
-.-
oie
wo zai jiang dao li!!
so must ting hao laiii!

im being meaner and meaner right?
i finding myself being more vulgar.
CANNOT!
must be guai kiiaaaa!~
-.-
cheeeeeeeeeebyeeeee!~
see?
i scold again -.-
thats my word.
i normally scold cheebye, jibong, or bai chi
okay
i changing back to bai chi
-.-
OKAY FREAK!
none of it -.-
i talking crap againnnnnn!
so
bye bye

theres one more person who likes to crap more
whos crap is moreeee moree pro than me.
DION SEAH!
dun believe?
once he crap.
never end de.

buay tahan!
LOLL!
jkjk

reply tag tagggs!~

VAN---->yeahs. you older than meeee!~ haha. when your bdae?
JASMINE---> hey cousinn! kkays. <333 style="font-weight: bold;">WINDYY----> haha. lazy pig finally post lerhhh!~ zai bu post blog jiu rot liao worh! hehe. loves tooo~
YIHCHYUAN---> me sexier than you whattt! haha. jkjk -.-

2009-01-20T00:26:00.003-11:00

school was.. uh... great??
yeah
tmr will be like..
better i think?
cus lukris say im not gonna get scolded?
and leelia kinda good with me nowadays dee.
lets not talk about school okay?
after school.
and basketballl~!

i sooooooooooooooooo LOVE my seniors -.-
muahahaha.
no lah
i only know nat, yap yee, and fang.
they soooo good to me deee.
haha.
ah fang my baobeii~ -.-
she chose me dee
nat also very good.
she CHIOOO!
-.-
muahahaa
yapyee is CUTE
me lehh?
nothing
-.-

lame lame.
they really very good good..

i cant bear my tears from falling...
i cant hold on anymore.
its a secret.
i cant tell.
so sorry.
im sorry.

qing yuan liang wo
yuan liang wo bu cheng shou
yin wei wo dui wo zi ji bu liao jie
ke shi wo hen ai ni

today is so fucking cheebye de.

reply tags ((:

RACHEL---> you tell me move yo where?
VAN--->nooo. you my ah ma ! >< atika----> LOLL!. nvm lah. i find it enjoying ;x
yihchyuan---> LOLL!~
VAN---> muahahahaha. guai guai ah ma
YIH CHYUAN---> i know i sexier than you muahahaha!~ jkjk -.-
ANNABELLE--->im going backkie.~
ATIKA---->must say thank you (: haha
DION----> (((:

because i cant seem to understand it.

2009-01-19T21:19:00.000-11:00

today went to school as PER normal.
and get to see dada ONCE AGAIN!
woah so happy -.-
then went to school as normal
kept talking
then knew that home eco was on WEDNESDAY!
shit shit shit shit
cant shit -.-

then got lesson
PE ah.
run 5 rounds lorh
then got shuttle run
I SPRAINED MY LEG GAWDDAMNIT!
okay then now okay le lah
just a small sprain
nothing much
then had height and weight
DUN ASK ME HORH!
basically.
i am tall.
and i am underweight
HAHA!
that means im not FAT~
why?
i checked the book -.-

wonder how tall is dion?
and how heavy he is?
muahahahaha -.-
i so curious.
HE NOT ONLINE LAHH!
T.T
me so sad -.-
okay lame

then after that got what?
got duno what lah forget liao.
only REMEMBER THAT I WAS BULLIED BY:
PRAVITA...
LEELIA
JOEY
VANESSA
ATIKA
KE HUI!
sob sobs !
got tickled.
and shot by pravita.
then sit around there ah
kena saboed de.
but then they keep saying my reaction very CUTE???
o.o
i not cute lahhh ;x
but really.
i think my reaction to them really sucks.
-.-
AND AND AND AND!
the whole day i only could rmb ..
mr yueng de class T.T

VERON AND KAH WAI WAS NOMINATED FOR CLASS MONITOR AND MONITRESS!
hehe
clap clap for them
cheers for them!
haha.
lovely couple

the whole class sabo them.
AND SABO ME!

VOTE ME FOR WHAT??!
I AND DION VOTED FOR THE CLASS ASSISTANT MONITOR AND MONITRESS!
sob sob.
and was also voted for the...
english rep
sob sob
aiyoh
1e8 ah
why must vote
me and dion?
vote kahwai and veron can liao mahh!
then eng rep must partner adrain
then you guys keep saying put dion with me
LUCKY HE NOT WITH ME
if not get sabo-ed again

after schoolll~
went out of school to eat mac with veron and dion
called kahwai along
muahahaha!
then rosydi camee.
we all went to the playground
the got the singtel thing thing called me
then cannot spend time with dada T.T
then we talked talked talked
then DION SO HORNY DEE
hahah
same as me
muahahahaha -.-
then had to take bus home alone.
thanks dada for accompanying me
but i dun wan you to be lonely.
so i call you go with rosydi they all
sorry if i tooo mean ! ><>

reply tags

yihchyuan----> ya lorh. you keep prank me ! ><> YOOH! thnks thnks ! ((:

8letters,3words,1 meaning.
ILOVEYOU!

baby, i really do love you.

2009-01-18T16:42:00.000-11:00

duno why this blogskin de post
all italics de.
and FATIN!
spam me blog ah?
i spamm yours againn!
muahahaha!
okay
morning wake up
cant get to sleep
dada wakeup lerh come to me baogao -.-
heehee
so guai

GUYS!
I HAVE CHANGED MY PHONE NUMBER!
SO PLEASE ASK ME PERSONALLY FOR MY NUMBER
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
MY PREVIOUS PHONE NUMBER WILL NOT BE IN USE

if you dun understand english
i will give you alien language

!@$#
@ #@$% *&%#)$ )! )*#%$ )(*@$U !

simple it means
i changed my number -.-
laazy contiune mahh

actually today lazy post de.
but i scared the FAT PIG call me post
complaining that she sian
muahahahaha!
RACHEL LIM PEI PEI!
hahahahahahaa -.-
i not fat okay!
i cuteeee worh!
okay so bhb
-________-llll
getting my new phone at around 3pm later.
i think i will be using one blogsong
currently..
nonono
im adding moree!
HAHAHAHA!
and not putting the stop button .
im so stubborn
and bad

okay.
i promised my parents
that i must get at least 2 A1s.
我自己提出的！！
haha
guai bo?
if not i cannot study de.
will slack slack and slack
so rose soongg!
must hao hao ting ke worh!
cannot rang parents shi wang!
and im betting with dada
see who's chinese better!
but still
i no change from pri school
come to chinese class everything forget just
PLAY PLAY
and talk back to that teacher -.-
sad right?

see ah
i never guess wrong.
rachel lim pei pei call me post
MUAHAHAHAAH!

danson tang very shuai and cute also lehh!
but but but
luo zhi xiang better.
hahaahah!
-.-
but imeem.com
got afew of his songs so
sigh
cant put in blog lorh
but NVM!
got one song.
hahaaa
-.-
i think 4 songs should be enough for my blog bah
and i think this blogskin okay right?

tmr is home eco test.

T.T
T.T
T.T
T.T
T.T
T.T
okay im not crying but im sad..
supposed to be this face.
D;
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i so sadddd!
why?
dada nvr reply my sms -.-
LAMMEEEE~
真的，我很想你
我也不知道为什么。。。
也许我真的爱上了你
没在骗自己的感情..

maybe..
yeahs
because
我和你只欠一句我爱你

pls reply mi sms...
=DD

muahahahaaaaa
tmr go back school
events:

NEXT FRIDAY GO FIND MDM SNGGG!
woahhh!
miss her sooooo much
lucky i got to hug her
and i am gonna again!
WEEE!~

so i posted liaos.
tmr ah
duno wanna post..
unless that rachel lim pei pei call me come
I WILL CONSIDER HORH!

clarissa sooooooo cute!~
kkay lame lame
but she ISSS!
my handphone wallpaper is her and pearlyn lehh!
pearlyn chioooooo
clarissa CUTE
IVORY ALSO CUTE!
==
now go download songs lerh
bye byeee~

I CHANGED NUMBER LIAO HORH!

reply tags:

YIHCHYUAN----> eh huh?
ANNABELLE---> HEY HEY!! me miss youu too worh! of course can meet up! meet where? erm erm erm erm erm lets seee.
AH! ADMPS DE TOILET THERE! MY LAOGONG THERE WORH! haha -.-

baby, iloveyou
now you can sms me as much as you can lerh..

~~but i still think im such a letdown baby. i duno why. forgive me ??~~

yin wei wo zhi xiang shuo:
baby, wo ai ni

2009-01-18T01:28:00.002-11:00

the news was just..
sooo shocking
popo..
uncle de father.
shocking..
people.
pls
quit smoking if you are...
for your own sake
for your life's sake..

it changed my freaking mood when it reached my ears.
too sudden lerh..

thanks my dada....
you cheered me up.
thanks.
and iloveyous.

and i really mean it

2009-01-17T21:26:00.000-11:00

i gave us a chance to start anew.
im gona cherish it
i was a painful time to decide.

because...
the problem lies with me.
and i love you (((x

my laogong.
im sorry i broke your heart (((:

tags reply

rachel---->no lorh. you not cute. you fat ! HAHAHAHA! -.-
DION; laogong---> of course we can. and everthing will be alright i think from now ((:
JIAENN----> LOLL! tag liao lahh!

and i changed blogsong

2009-01-17T19:15:00.002-11:00

forget about yesterday
because its a new day today...
thats history.
that was old news..
but...
im still thinking bout it.
and wondering do i still love you?

BOOO!~
lets start todayyy.
heehee
went back to wushu
FUNNYYYY!
and funnn!~
lazy talk
but RACHEL LIM XIN PEI!
you must remember.
you owe me worh
beat buttock haha
muahahahahahahaha!
then went to have ICE CREAM FLOAT!
heeheeee
thnk worh coachh!~
but then go show my p3 picture.
so nooooob!~

rachell lim pei pei forced me to post de worh!
she like pig.
sleep sleep sleep
lolll!!!
muahahahahaaa!~

im trying to bear my anger.
im trying not to scold anyone.
im trying my very very very best..
so dun you DARE pick on me.

im trying my very best
very very best...

so dun try me .

because i dun know if i love you anymore.
after what happened ystd.
fine i admit.
i went cray over you this afternoonn
but..
i not sure.
because each time i touch the keyboard
wanting to talk to you
a feeling just come
iloveyou but
theres something wrong with me
and the thing is wrong with me..
thats the thing..
im sorry.
its my fault.

and im going back to be cold
and quiet in class.
im not gonna be loud and chatty.
sorry darling.
the problem is with me.
not you (((:

noone said anything.
because.
it was a sudden shock to me
and i need to be alone.

when noone just said something

dun say a word when it doesnt mean anything...
=DD
im talking crap .

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You are the only love I'll need

In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh
(imagine me without you)
(I'd be lost and so...)
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day,
Without you there to see me through
(imagine me without you
(I'd be lost and so...)
impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me
(without you)
I can't imagine me without you

because my heart aches each time ....
listen to my heart

2009-01-16T19:22:00.001-11:00

morning
almost couldnt wake up
hais.
went to school
CHONG JIA AN!
i saw you again -.-
went to school
was normal normal.
but.
haish
today ah.
first part mood not good.
then MT ah
actually okay okay de.
cus that zhi jun and adrian damn funny de .
then me and cher ying laugh too loud
then the chinese teacher say:
you think your chinese very good mehh?
WALAOWEH!
then her english very good ah?
say me and cher ying until likethat
freak lorh
she zhong guo ren lehh
idiot.
then dun care lorh
i so damn buay song her
xPPPP
bleahhh!

after school
met marcus
went on the bus
then went halfway
we heard the bus uncle calling the bus duno de manager or what?
say the bus de engine got prblem
the bus silent de lehh
then after that next stop got alot of people get down de bus
LOLL!
kiasi..
thenn we all dun care
a few more stops then get off liao mahh
wun accident de lahh
then now i not spirit ah
im back safe horh
after get off the bus.
marcus, me and firzanah
started getting horny.
and crazy
keep laughing all teh way home
MARCUS CAN LAY EGG DE LEHH!
hahahaahahahahahahahahaa
i gonna tell the whole world that
lols.
that time i keep laughing.
from angry to happy and crazy
then i talk too loud liao lah
make everyone look at me
but well. hey.
LOUDSPEAKER IS BACK WORHHH!
kk.
im changing blogskin

cus i freaking hate this blogskin

reply tags!

dion-----> ^^ i dun dare talk to you in class mahh ;x that stupid nicholas! AHHH! heehee. me love you always! xD
maggie ----> heehee
cherying----->YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!~

each time you left me.
i didnt know what to do
i simply just break down
dada.
thanks.
you were the one who gave me a chance
to get up on my own feet.
and face the reality.
i was afraid to start a new rleationship.
cus i as scared i may end up like last time
regretting
thanks
alot
you changed everything
dada.
i love you.
alot.
i dun wanna leave you
i wanna be with you
everytime we parted i just feel like breaking down
dada, i loveyou

2009-01-15T00:38:00.005-11:00

before i start my post.
i wanna write something.
since everyone knows i have a stead..
then it shall be
okay.
here it goes.
just dun puke.
cus i know its unlike me.

dada, dun sad okay?
good that you let it out to me.
good that you told me the truth
good that you told me everything and not keeping it to yourself.
because i hate to see you likethat.
cus its unlike you
and i didnt know you were likethat.
cus i thought i was the only one.
you told me just now before :
the past is the past.
now is now.
forget about your past.
cus now i want is now de you.

i dun care how bad you were.
i dun care how you acted in the past
because all i want is happiness for you
i want us to be happy.
you have new frens.
BETTER FRENS!
veron, gina, kah wai... yeah! these kinds.
so must smile okay??

okay now schooLLL!
same thing
dada fetch meee! ^^
and then need wait for gina.
IN THE END SHE WAS IN SCHOOL FREAKK! -.-
then me and dada lucky got rosydi and one more guy; i duno who -.-
pei us
if not we like idiots stand there wait lorh
then morning assembly.
NAN DE DM PRAISE WO MEN LORH!
first period.
MUSIC.
at first didnt dare to look at dada de..
cus..
cuss
cus.
something
but duno why reccess keep talking and laughing.
then in class write letter -.-
AFTER RECCESS MOST FUNNY DE!
I EMBARASSED NICHOLAS!
now fun is that???!
flirt with me eh?
i give you lian se kan!
what happened?
i started being horny ( back to pri school de pervert! )

me: EH ! sit down!
nicholas : why lehh?
me : LATER SEE YOUR UNDERWEAR LAHH! i forgot liao. IS PANTEEE!
nicholas: ...... then he go stand the other side .

then nicholas keep talking that 9 o'clock show de sergant leong thing thing
then after that i say:
SERGANT LEONG!
nicholas : YES MDM!
me : SIT DOWN! CAN SEE YOUR UNDERWEAR!

everyone laughed.
in class also
i was talking to veron.
then after that he come to me again -.-
HAIYO!
then i shout in fronnt of the WHOLE CLASS
SERGANT LEONG!
then he said yes madam!
i said GO SIT DOWN AND DO YOUR WORK!
he said okay -.-
he so scared of me
lolls.
but it is a good thing lorh
dada, no need jealous
he this idiotic and stupid person
he will get it from me de.
okay?

then had geog.
THE TEACHER DAMN NICE DE!
he sooo good good.
cus we keep asking stupid qn.
then make the whole class laugh non stop.
then i say he watch porn -.-
rosydi also say.
then he say something -.-
something lahh
-_____________-llll

but the whole geog lesson i was laughin non stop.
its funnnnnieee~
and the first time i laughed so much in a lesson lorh

then had bball after school.
did hw with dada.
and zhi kai.
after that the senior train me, janice, diyana and the 2 girls i forget liao.
we train shooting.
and layup.
i scoreee!~
weee
the seniors very good lorh
then training that time they train with me
say ROSE come here!
rose ! go there -.-
they very good
keep calling me
to partner them loll.
they very good good.
ilove my seniorrss!~

dada tired le go backiie home.
then smsed each other..
((((:

Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

because i cant be perfect enough to lend you a shoulder to cry on

sorry..
'

dada
must smile lehh
cus i already fallen for you
cus ystd night when you asked me that qn.
i didnt know how to reply.
i dun dare to tell you.
then i realised that i really had fallen for you
so maybe another night call today?
no wan.
i tired lerh.
dada...
i now only wanna tell you
wo zhen de zhen de hen ai ni!
and i dun want you to leave mee... =D
woaini!!

2009-01-14T19:39:00.000-11:00

wake up CALLLL!!!~
ringg !~ -.-

went to school tuhday..
normall........
dada come fetch me ( simple -.-)
and i saw my father last time de car
then i boliao go tell my mom
-________-llll
diao
then walked to school with dada
and waited for veron to come.
gina waited for me outside of the main gate for
duno-what-reason -.-
saying that i will scold her if she dun wait for me?
LOLL!
then went to the main gate with dada and met gina on the way
LOLL -.-
cus she came in out of a sudden.
then me and dada keep teasing her...
-.-
this morning de morning assembly kinda fast de.
went to class.
homeeconomics.
lucky lucky
i was in same group as dada, veron, cherying, ke hui, gina and kah wai!!!~
weeeee~
yay!
got good good frens pei meee!~
xP
then had reccess.
something happened.
-.-
just something.
that made me cannot faster accomplish my mission-.-
nvm
take it step by step...
then had IT lesson
THAT TEACHER SOOOOOO!~
nvm
dun complain
must calm down
later kena caught by teacher then DIE DIE! -.-
later need become counselled again -.-
T.T
SAD
calm down rose..
..
.....
......
should be okay lerh -.-
then maths lesson
i almost fell asleep.
in class
haiiiiis.!

now im finding new blogskin
-.-
ahh!
HELP ME!

so fast our class got 3 stead lerh
my laogong i love you so much
i fallen for you le.
i really had
but why has it to be so unlucky that..
your handphone is spoilt?
i want your smses.
i miss you
i love you.
sorry that i spent so little time with you
because i fallen for you ((:
dada, iloveyou

2009-01-14T00:13:00.001-11:00

hihi!
tuhday nth much
only went to school with violet.
you late worhh!
then in sci class
rosydi kena punished
5mins of talking
LOLLLL!
funnny.

get beating haha.
jkjk
then lets go go go to bball.
bball ahh

VERY FUN!
but tiring -.-
hehe
i like the seniors.
they very good .
and then got the senior boys.
we call him lead the cool down.
then we call his name.

arasdi ( if i spelt correctly)

the team : ARASDI ( clap clap)
Arasdi : thank you thank you
team : ARASDI!!!! clap clap
team : arasdi!!!!!!
arasdi : thank you thank you.. i want to thank my mother, my father... my family... my friends.
TEAM : LOLLLLL!
-.-

nth much tuhday..
after school waited for violet.
and went home together with marcus ..
violett.
ILOVEYOUUUUUUUU!
-.-
lame lame

reply tags!

JIEYING ----> yeahs!
DION----> should be i wait barh. hehe
RACHEL----> xP i got selected (:
SOULLXX---> kkkkk!
TRISTEN----> heh! waaaah you long time no tag mi blog le worh
ZOE----> mi tooo T.T
DION--> haha! finally you come tag tag me lerh! ((:

my violet. i love you so much!
my baby..
-_____________-lllll

twelve january two thousand nine

2009-01-12T21:57:00.000-11:00

i was watching yu le bai fen bai
suddenly cried.
cus..
it reminded me of auntie jun chin
really.
the end of someone's life is way more painful than..
breaking up with your loved one.
autine jun chin
its been long till i had to rmb you
how are you?
jun feng is doing great.
hes doing wushu you know?
i bet uncle thomas is doing fine too.
jun feng is getting healthier and healthier.
and stronger each day
chinese new year is coming.
i get to see jun feng once again
rest assured.
i will take care of him
just like a sister.
not just a cousin but a sister.
i miss you alot.
last year.
i rmb
when you gave me ang bao.
and talked to me
and i forget to tell you.
i got into yishun secondary!
and got 214 for my PSLE.
i got better than jas! (:
how are you doing up there? fine?
my school is good.
my teachers are good...
my friends are good.
everything is doing alright in my sec school.
(((:
how i wish you could reply me..

from rose; your niece; ping ping...

2009-01-12T20:31:00.000-11:00

tuhday went to school.
went late!
but nvm
the person waiting fore me also late -.-
on the bus met jiaenn
so qiao
then go bus ride.
go schooooll.
then someone wait fore me at the school gate.
then walked inside the school.
then met veron and melissa they all.
and then become to sms mode!
then morning assembly.
sang the national anthem 2 times D:
sad sad.
hey guys.
i maybe changing my blog
ACCOUNT!
not url not skin.
(:
maybe tmr changing.
lets contiune story.
nth much lah
start lesson
then now i know
rosydi and dion so horny de lorh
lols.

then end school.
went home very late late.
cus got bball briefing D:
tmr got training.
(:
so if want see me play go chong pang CC worh!
haha
who want see me play.
so lan!
-.-

then after that saw jane yee, li ying, jieying.
aiyah those courage de and jieying
from ahmad ibrahim de.
nvm
and then saw
TSAQIBBBBBB!!!!

long time no see him lerh lah
then we keep chatting and chatting.
he changed alot lehh
he joining NCC he say
lolls.

GUYS!

pls for this mth dun sms me
or call me
cus my sms over le
and i using someone else's number.
so dun call me or sms.
thanks.

you said we had 3 options.
i duno. its up to you.
because i am the one who had exprienced it before.
but im gonna treat it as a serious one
and not gonna take it lightly

reply tags

MAGGIE----> yeahss!
amalina ---> HEY HEY MY CRAZY PARTNER! hows your school?
JIAENN ---> i wunt forget (:
DION ----> hey hey! good dogg! hehe. jkjk ;x ==

2009-01-11T17:03:00.004-11:00

im now having sore throat.
and my head aches.
freak lah
tmr got school
i better get well quickly! (:
JIAYOU ROSE!

we really should work on it.
im serious with you...
iloveyou(:

2009-01-11T15:02:00.000-11:00

ystd went ot play bball.
reached there saw kim chuan jeremy they all
how i know they all playing there -.-
then went to fetch dion
and went to the bball court.
then we play play play.
dion injure is fingerss..
then still act okay -.-
then play awhile yih chyuan , me and dion go walk walk around woodlands -.-
gen ben mei you da daooo!
got a little lah
YC really pro okay?
then after that went home.
and to my cousin de house.
stayed there for like an hour?
after that went china town.
sad lorh
so manyy people.
then squeezeeeee! ><
guys.
now dun sms my phone okay?
cus my sms bao le.
so must wait wait wait.
til next month D:
so cant sms.

went back home got headache.
then faster bathe.
then SLEEPING TIMEEEEEEEEEEE!~
xDDDDDD
i was the first one to go to bed lorh
so honoured :X
cus head pain sialll!
then i sleep loh

then this morning wake up my sister complain i snore -.-
so diao.

good to hear that you hand is getting better.
MR COW got help alot worh!
i duno when we can heal.
-.-
add more cow shittooos!
you better get well or elseeee!!!
you know what happen :X

thanks kehui, cherying, veron(ica) and gina.
you are the only true frens in that class alrights?
loves you all!

reply taggies.

RACHELL ----> ((: kkays
JIAENN--> hahas. sorry worh. next time got play i confirm call you de okay? and will take note of that
MEGAN ---> ouh. okays (:
FATIN----> imyt!!
JOVIAL --> ouh. kkays.

dun scold if you are not helping.
i had enough of this. you are adding salt to that wound
because i thought i could rely on you guys.
cus you were always encouraging me !
i guess i only can rely on kehui, veron, cher ying, gina and zhi kai (:

2009-01-10T17:03:00.002-11:00

im now having sore throat.
and my head aches.
freak lah
tmr got school
i better get well quickly! (:
JIAYOU ROSE!

we really should work on it.
im serious with you...
iloveyou(:

2009-01-10T13:57:00.000-11:00

later im going basketballlliee!
with dion and yih chyuan.
i now calling other people.
only 3 D:
greg nvr reply me in msn
FREAK LAH!
rose dun so ji dong lah -.-
so those who interested to come
please go to bball court at 1.30pm @ 717 there de.
thank youuuu!
i bring the basketball.
kim chuan
i hope you can go.
tristen!
i dun have your contact D:
i try find find ~
GUYS
who i usually play with for bball.
and being the only girl sometimes ..
PLEASE IF YOU SEE THIS GO?
-.-
i want you guys to gooo!~
please please.
D:
T.T

if you miss my loudness please come.
if you miss my beatings please come.
i very welcome de.
IF YOU MISS ME PLEASE COME!
okay you boys dunt -.-

if you do please come come comeee!
im short of players.
GIRLS TOOOOOO!
i know maybe you all not interested de
-______________-lll

nvm
just wish that all of you will turn up.
ignore my CRAP !!

your midnight sms-es
your everything.
your silence.
are you another crush?
or are you crazy?

2009-01-09T00:36:00.005-11:00

oneEIGHT
oneEXPRESSeight!
1-8
1E8
EH HELLLOOO!

GIRLS!
i thought you matured lerh.
me and dion are like just frens.
close frens.
not like what you think .
okay?
today i very pissed off liao .
i kept quiet and didnt vent my anger like what i did to nicholas.
scold him let everyone hear likethat
already good liao
you all still want say me.
DION is a good friend
a very very good friend.
we not bf and gf.
understand?
so dun be so childish
i sms him only what.
GOT PROBLEM?
you guys already lucky i never shout at you guys lerh
you still wanna make me more angry?
WTF LAH!!
i know i very vulgar now.
but i just really pissed off liao
so sorry.
when i sms you all say is from dion.
walao you guys.
i say you like nicholas you guys all happy anot?
i not talking about all the girls.
i talking about MOST.
6th day of school them got this type of thing liao
want see me cry then happy is it?

GUYS.
you all grow up also can?
i pissed off liao
dion also pissed off liao but he never chu sheng
you al please stop it?
we are like jie jie and di di..
happy??

today school was okay..
went to school.
dion go fetch me.
then we go school together.
then after that normal normal..
got sore throat.
now keep cough cough cough
cus scold that nicholas.
dun believe ask my class.
because of the class.
and HIM!!!!! >< ahhhh! then the duno zhi qing punch rosydi. ouch then he bled. painful i can see... then got the CCA thing. i got my own cca so i go up first. then i watch the boys play bball. then joey and agnes and the yi cheong ( YC) the YC tell joey and agnes ystd bbal dion and me sms thingy. what the helll lah then they go spread spread spread. now everyone teasing us liao lorh WE SMS ONLY GOT PROB? jealous???? o.o then i happy happy watch bball then you guys keep saying sms dion ah wahh dion shuai bo. -.- then i just sit down and like cover myself. dun care them then you all keep contiune. after that ran to toilet.
then go back to the corridor.
watch them play bball.
then saw dion and duno who do pull ups.
pro lorh he
join bball lah!!! >< style="font-weight: bold;">tristen ---> hellooooooo! long time no chat.
RACHEL----> you so bad de D:
yihchyuan---> helllooo!~

so what if i cried.
i cannot bear.
i dun want to scold.
i dun want to offend anyone.
so i cannot bear ..
so sorry.

2009-01-08T00:39:00.003-11:00

hellos.
wah
just came back from BASKETBALL!
i got in
marcus.
neh nani pu pu
i got in
you didnt
MUAHAHAHAHA!
-.-

okay im evill!
but i really got into you know
i perservered so much! ><
haha lame as if lorh
and thanks dion for giving me support (:
stupid you go macdonald chui air con
then i cannot lorh!
i need practise D: in the hot sun!
DION! no fair D:
then still sms me .
but well.
thanks for watching me and giving me pointers (:
but next time we challenge see who more pro okay?
wait till my stamina recover first okay?
thanks thanks really.
but you also must train train lorh
and congrats rosydi! jiayou in your soccer worh!
i think i only closest to the 2 of them among the boys

next is kawaiii!!!! -.-

kawan lah -.- then is... t

hink is the andy?
haha. -________-ll
im listing all the boys out -.-
damn tired de now.

rosydi : i really not sure.
even if it is true.
i also not sure.
i must consider first.
if not is care i make the wrong descion again D:
so i need time to think about it lorh cus my ex is finding me .
and i duno lah..
so im gona end here (:
so bye bye

~~fine i do like him~~

2009-01-07T20:36:00.003-11:00

ytsd damn funny.

the bball coach wants us to line up mah
then we all never sit down.
then he want us to sit down lah :X
then he say.
CHIO BU SIT!
CHOW BU STAND!
then all the sit down one all stand up.
hahas.
so lao shi!

haishh
now i duno whch CCA to join lehh
bball?
or volleyball?
WHICH ONE LAH!
-.-

saw rach and her new fren just now
she bian chio le worh!
:X

met another fren.
i guess its the first guy fren closest to me in class (:
dionnn!!!!
-.-
lame lame.
his blog is deadd.
rotting -.-
kkays lame.
and met another
ROYSIDI!!!!
-.-

goodbyeee!

dion ---> YOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH! haha :X i know you jealous my blog nicer than yours (:
passerby --> mind telling mie who you?? o.o

2009-01-06T21:38:00.000-11:00

i just walk past the route we used to take everyday.
i seem to miss the times i had with you
i totally miss it.

just wish that you can come back sometime.
walking me halfway through..
fetching me and walking back home.

i just had to say sorry.
and i simply dun regret.

iloveyou so..

2009-01-06T20:31:00.000-11:00

i skipped lunch tuhday.
damn damn damn hungryyy D:
somemore i come back 3.30 plus le
teacher lorh
release late D:
but its fun tuhday,
soo..
im freaking hungry,
and dinner is later ><>

2009-01-05T20:23:00.001-11:00

haha. second day of school
at least got make until some friends.
many people ask if my school got shuai ge.
ermm.
yes lah
my taste very bad de.
-.-

and i made friends! thank god!
lets see i met.
1..
2...
3..

alot lahhh! >

< style="font-weight: bold;">zawanah - okay.
annabelle - {:
benedict - yoooooooooooh!

2009-01-04T19:33:00.000-11:00

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lily田丽 as "angel" 陸琪雅
张善傑 as 陸克英
米恩 as 李佳玲

hehe(: very funny and nicee!
the clue collector.
about mystery de lah
but its nice to watch (:

must watch must watch!
so bye bye!

2009-01-04T15:52:00.001-11:00

now i tou tou use com....
wunt be posting much (:
cus i cant use comp oftenly nowadays.
will reply tags another time if possiblex)
basically.
i went tv shopping ystd.
and my dad keeps talking how good the LCD screen is -.-
cus he doesnt really watch tv mahh
he only watches soccer -.-
siau.
but funny.
-.-

so nth much lah
just reply tags lorhs

RACHEL ------> i very guai de okay ! :P
JIAENN -----> LOL! nvm pei me mahh. nvr make frens. haha...

一句话都不要说。。。
安静下来，陪我看日出

2009-01-03T17:59:00.001-11:00

waaah
my tagboard flooded with tags.
YIPPEE
finally got many ppl tag mi blog lerh -.-
lame lame
okok
lets see.
i contiune ystd de story bah
after school went homie with marucs and firzanah
met zoeee.
then walk back home.
on the way i kept saying hello to ADMPS de ppl -.-
then met mrs kumar.
marcus bet me say you go greet her if you dare
i dare!

i go greet.
good afternoon mrs kumar.
HAHAHAHA
then she say hello
so hows schoool?
and stuff.
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA-.-

-.-
nth much tuhday.
just wanna contiune ystd de story
-______________________________-llllll
crapps

later going out lah :X
so bye bye

reply tags..

annabelle ---> yes you are right (:
JIAENN -----> LOL! they check fringe and etc. etc. i never get caught :X
RACHEL ---> ah is it? i link lerhs. (= hahas. i thought you wanted to go that sch?
MAGGIE -------> okok. but i scare go find you your friends around very ps ... :X
YIH CHYUAN ---> hmms. IE is internet explorer. MF is mozilla firefox (:

2009-01-02T20:11:00.000-11:00

i admit i had some zi lian pictures.
of what?
me and my uniform -.-
lame to say that.
just to mark the first day of hell?

okays.
lets talk about school?

firsy day of school.
woke up early early...
go school early early.
was muted for half an hour until i met maggie.
she kinda chio de (:
then the principal talk.
then the DM talk.
check attire.
sit from 730 to 950.
how sick.
i was looking forward to school lorh
in the it was like hell?
okay not exactly lah
but the food at school was cheap and nice?
yeahs.
then after reccess go up to the hall.
and then the DM give another half an hour speech again.
then finally can go back to class.
my teacher okay lah
i like my class.
and my teacher.
but i havent made any friends -.-
so..
i think i should stop here.
and show you the pictures.

my MF got problem le lah

now need use IE

stupid :X

now IE also got problem

so pictures are located UPSTAIRS

yeahs. i posted my sisters and i de photo.

CUTE MAH?!

that time i only 5 years old i think.

HAHAAA!

okays lame lets reply tags.

lishi ----> heyhey thanks!
cherying
----> helloooo! i know you and thanks!
(:

kkays. i'll stop here.

BYE BYE!

2009-01-01T19:00:00.002-11:00

happy new year!
happy new year!
happy new year!

nth much to post much today.
since the year of mouse isnt over yet.
i should post a very cute and funny video -.-
all about mousee!

mickey mouse -.-

and and and and.
a chinese 冷笑话

一点也不冷-.-
ok lah.
it is -.-
very bai chi.
and cute.
look carefully at xiao gui.
he like think xiao zhu wu yao ke jiu.
LOL!

not funny.

a show became a kiss scene
LOLLL!

kk. lame lame.
i wanna change to a nicer bs again.
recommand?

-.-

ohoh.
and i am editing my to do list ?
kinda.
my new year resoulution -.-

okay so.
im up till here?bye bye

btw.
i will be replying tags in my post from now on (:

maggie ---> hey hey! happy new year too!
annabelle --> hello! happy new year!

i do not wanna flood my tagboard :X

2008-12-31T18:29:00.000-11:00

欢迎来到罗志祥歌唱大赛！！！

yes. today de chnl U de

娱乐百分百

罗志祥歌唱大赛!

yes. 就是这样！
好期代哦！

but im watching now -.-
via youtube. ?

i know lah
no point whining like a baby
like a mad fan
cannot buy albumm.
so what?
sec 1 go make $$ can liao lorh
-.-
i mature le hahaa!
the day before de show ah..
luo zhi xiang also become mature lerh.
-.-
xiao gui ah.
still that playful guy.
wahahahaha.
lame okays.

now......
im going to my youtube de tour le!
soo bye bye!

maybe i woont be posting much nowadays?
except..
HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRR!
who's counting down today??

2008-12-30T18:41:00.001-11:00

life sucks freaking hell at home.
im dying to go school.
hey mommy.
you really can go suck cock liao lah
stay at home.
ehy. your temper not good no need to blow up at sisters and me right?
SO WHAT?
i said i want the album very badly.
you WERE the one who threw that $31.00 at me.
WHAT.
i never buy good enough liao lah
asshole lah
not happy not happy lah
or you want see me buy the you happy happy is it?
okay lorh.
school reopens first (:
i will grant your wish
so that i wont be listening to your what freaking oh- scolding.
shout lah
better if your throat break.
keep ivory's christmas present
make me find till siau.
WHERE THE FUCK YOU KEEP IT YOU BITCH?
freak lah you
you also like luo zhi xiang what.
idiot -.-
fine!
i will argue with you.
as long as i can!
you shout at me i shout louder back at you
FAIR!

thats what they say about old people.
old people = hot temper
mother = old. = hot temper = loud= sot sot

the loud i learnt from greg .
he always call me that cus im too loud...

okay rose enough !

i aint in that freaking mood for blogging.
but i just gotta say....

to: some kind of person?
gogogo enjoy your life.
forget about us, forget about me
because all your talk about isnt about us.
so its a goodbye from here

leave me alone to die in a corner.
because you were ONCE everything to me.

because its been a month and noone mentioned about you
and i am over you
till a day...

my guy, iloveyou so.

when i said i love you
i mean.
ILOVEEEE...
ALAN LUO ZHI XIANG AKA SHOW LUO!
AND XIAO GUII!
><

2008-12-29T20:14:00.000-11:00

yes! i download finish le.
now nth to do.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
xiao zhu got one ruo dian

watch and seee

see? his ruo dian very bad right ? hahas -.-
lame

okays.
soooo.
i go find somemore.
byes.

somemore?

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

lame -.-

2008-12-29T18:52:00.000-11:00

freak.
just came back from ADMPS wushu and???
HICCUP!
HICCUPP!!
AHH!

drink hot water ( everytime sure cure for me de )
drink first sip then tang dao my tongue.
FREAK!
okay.
done.
no more hiccup
cus i go drink again
buay tahan lerh.
-.-
lucky..

HA!
now im downloading the song all over again.
cus it cannot be played -.-
now i know the problem liaoooooo!
.____________________.

so dun disturb me for reall.
and SAYONARA!

~~i better appear offline -.-~~

im counting down to...........................
SCHOOL OPEN!

2008-12-28T19:41:00.000-11:00

changed my blogsong de playlist.
luo zhi xiang de new album.
some songs missing.
psps.
nono.
only one.
completed downloading.
while chatting with yih chyuan
((:
just wanna say a thank you to him
and that i will miss him toos
i wont forget you de (:

2008-12-28T18:07:00.000-11:00

ystd went to cwp de popular..
guess what??!
cus beside there is the CD rama de shop mahh.
i go find show luo's albumm..
找了老半天才找到的 ok?
its the size of a magazine.
inside got poster one.
then his DVD or CD i duno (:
the poster is SUPER BIG.
and it costs a total of $30.95.
freak.
and i cannot buy lah
stupid stupid -.-
stupid.
i want it so badly D:
but NVM

today i happy a little bit.
cus i downloading the WHOLE albumm.
online -.-
but but but
i still buying the album worh.
why?
i want the posterrr! ><
and the mirror :X

so no more talking..
GO AND DOWNLOAD!
no disturbance pleaseeee!
song no. 2 cannot download D:
ehy. i download LEGALLYY ><
-.-
i very guai de.
..
.....
........
aiyah. i stop crapping liao.
soo.
BYEEEEEEE!

thanks for lending me a shoulder to cry on
and a listening ear to my problems.
my bestest budd(:

2008-12-27T15:18:00.005-11:00

freak
freak
freak
freak
freak!
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak
freak

i wonder how many freaks im gonna type -.-

freak
freak
freak
freak!!!!!
-.-
freak
freak
freak

okay enough

mommy no allow me buy.
EAT SHIT LAH! ><
only CD not DVD
i say i want CD good enough liaos.
i say i reduce my comp time by 1 hr .
no ..
confiscate mi phone?
no.
walaoo ><
i study 1 hr per day?
no WTFFFFF ><
" go ask your daddy lorh . "
DDDDDDD:
i know daddy will let de.
but dun dare.
scare he scold scold ..
duno leh.
j ust scare he later come up with excuses again then nag nag nag nag -.-

WTF WTF WTF WTF!
now my mom say go malaysia buy fang ban STUPID LAH GO EAT SHIT.
d un want dun want waah so damn angry liaos.
I DUNT WANT FANG BAN DE.

i repeat..

i dun want FANG BAN DE! FREAKKKKKKKKKKK!

forgive me but..
fuck -.-

i just hate you mommyy >< style="font-family:arial;">

2008-12-26T18:27:00.000-11:00

wahahahaha.
just had a nice feast of KFC.
today is the day after christmas mahh.
soooo.
after the juniors little "test",
we all go up to music room.
practise again.
then me , ivory, kong lao shi and su wen
we all hurry go 888 plaza order KFC.
actually want order pizza de D:
but then too long.
cus gonna be xia ke lerh :X
today is a happy happy day.
happy happy day.
i love today..
why?

LUO..

ZHI...

XIANG....

TODAY....

FA...

CHANG PIAN!

in singapore..
nononono

ALL OVER THE WORLD!
gawd damnnn!
i want iittt
im sooo gonna pester my mommy to buy buy buy buy!

now my next want thing.
xiao gui de albumm!

but duno when he fa...

hais.

i just called my mom.
i begged her to buy.
the conever me and her....
like never ending.

me : MOMMYY! LUO ZHI XIANG TODAY FA NEW ALBUM LEHH!

mommy : so?

me : LATER YOU PASS BY ANY POPULAR SHOP OR CD SHOP AH YOU HELP ME SEE GOT HIS ALBUM ANOT!

mommy : why?

me : I WANT TO BUY!!!!!

mommy : no!!!

me : PLEASE LAH! OR JUST SEE HOW MUCHHH! PLEASELAH

mommy : nnoooooooo!

me : PLEASE LAH PLEASE LAH! JUST HELP ME BUY THEN I DUN ASK FOR ANY MORE THINGS OKAY?

mommy : NOOOOOOOOOOO!

me : AIYAH JUST HELP ME SEE WHAT THE PRICE CAN LIAO LAH!

mommy : okkay lah

me : SUN BIAN BUY BUY OKAY? PLEASE LAHH OKAY? BYE BYEE!

-.-
i put down the phone.
oh ya.
im alone at home baby sitting my second sister -.-
while shes out.
walaooo
i want buy lah
who got money buy for me -.-
for Xmas present ! ><
lame lame alme lame
jk only.
dun take it fore real (:

but but but.
my xin now itchy itchy want buy lahh! ><

correct right?
the album release on 26/12/08 RIGHHTTT??!
wtf wtf
mummy i gonna force you -.-
BUT ME NO $$
D:
I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
his new song on radio liaos :X

check this out!

hot shot's song (:
he sing de!
and...

HIS DANCE ROCKS -.-

this song rocks alsoooooo ><

sad song D:

LUO ZHI XIANG!
gimme your album fore free ?? D:
-.-
okay.
rose..
stop stop stop stop.
so not like you.
but i too happy liao!
cannot take it.

bye bye bye bye!

* screams *

26/12/08

2008-12-25T16:45:00.000-11:00

merry merry merry christmas everyone..
noone tag mi blog D:
sad sad sad sad

i got somekind of ghosts
or to make it worse.
bastards...
as you know.
the assholes?
busybodies who keeps looking at my blog.
because?
i..
i..
i..
DIDNT TELL HIM MY NEW URL!
hahahahahaha
-.-
and then

my parents treat him and his siblings more better lorh
ehy mummy.i your daughter..
he is just an OUTSIDER!
god damn.....

my worst christmas everrr.
but teh best christmas present(:
thnks weilun.
but luo zhi xiang de new album not in singapore yet
so..
lets say maybe this wont be christmas present........
thnks weilun.
my bestesst..
brother?
hahas...

sososososososos..
bye bye...

2008-12-25T01:51:00.000-11:00

hahas.
just now went to laborador park with my cousin(:
then me and him had a conversation

*he runs to me*

him : tissue tissuee....
me : hah?
him: tissue...
me : ...
him: TISSUE LAHH! TISSUEEE TISSUEE!
me : okayy...
him : HURRY HURRY! TISSUEEE!
me : haish.. okok. wait wait WAIT LAH!
him : HURRYY!!
( i slowly take out... then i want give him de.. then got plaster stuck there. then he just snatch)
me : nah! you take liao arhh!
him : OKAY LAHH!
me : *sigh*

then walk walk walkk...

him : you believe i litter the tissue?
me: you dare??
him : i dare!
me : you dare?
him : i dareee!
me : you really dare??
him : i told you i dare!
me : you throw lorh!
him : no want.
me: i thought you dare??
him: i dare!
me: then?
him : okay lah.
me : good.
him : dun dare lahh

-_______________-lll
so diao rights?

i still got pictures.
nowadays very lazyy.
-.-
so bye bye!

2008-12-24T19:05:00.000-11:00

hahas.
i met one friend.
also from YSS.
the !@$%
waaah
i havent get into the school already know a senior lerh (:
she treat me very well lah :X
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
we got so much in common
hope first day of school can meet her somehow(:
;P

im like beginning to like sec school..
;P

nth much
today just very happy can meet this good good de friend! (:
sooo.
i go watch show le BYEBYE!

i will forget everything..

2008-12-23T19:32:00.000-11:00

爱的确会改变一个人。有些人会变得好，有些人会变得很坏
可是我的心不能没有你。。。

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

wont be posting much these few days.

2008-12-23T17:51:00.000-11:00

im not in the mood for any posting.
but i just have to tell someone something.

hey someone:

you may or may not read this.
because we may or may not keep in touch with each other.
i just want you to know.
i dunt care what you said in that phone call.
i never had a chance to tell you
how much i appreciated you as a friend.
and calling me to forget about you is totally impossible.
you are my best friend.
how can you?
you bear to leave me ?
can you bear to forget me?
can you?
you cant.
so how can you expect me to forget you?
please.
i never had a chance to tell you how much you mean to me
cus i used to be that girl.
that crazy girl who doesnt seem to have any downs.
im always so happy.
but but but but.
i really love you to core girl.
can you take back the words you said ?
i can hear you sobbing on the phone already.
cmon.
2 years of happy times together.
anything just tell me.
i will try my best to help you
if not is that you dun trust me ...
you're not only hurting yourself.
you are hurting others also.
so please........
can you take back the words you said to me.
and tell me what is wrong???

i think i wont be posting much guys.
sooo.
bye bye..

i so look forward to secondary school.
new friends.
new life...

nadiah,iloveyou...

2008-12-22T18:57:00.000-11:00

went to malaysia the past few dayss.
my ah ma's bdae! >.<
happy belated birthday worh ah ma!
pictures will be uploaded later.
nnonono.
tmrr, cus im lazy to do that.
and im too busy to do that -.-
nth muchhh. byebyeee

thnks, and sorry

do i look better with my fringe down???

2008-12-20T10:41:00.001-11:00

its 5.37 in the morning now.
just came to do some early posting.
well.
im up so early.
becausee.
im going malaysia later.
so guys.
i wunt be posting.
so rachelll.
me no report tuhday and tmr
im in a rush now
soooo.
goodbyes!~

5 more days

~~i got over him. and that is considered a new life~~
P.S ************* hahas -.-

2008-12-19T19:12:00.003-11:00

today went to yishun sec.
well. its abit far.
so woke up around 6.40 am
and went to that school.
i thought that school no good de lorh

but it turned out to be SUPER GOOOOODD!
can bring handphone to school.
but can use before 730am and after 2pm

otherwise NO! >< -.- and socks can have logo.
as long as it is white.
any length also can as long can see .
ANKLE SOCKS ALSO CANN! ><><

lyrics..

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你你選擇了自己

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情承諾永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮安靜了在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱卻沒有人握我的手

hanyu pinyin:

Zhi Sheng Xia Gang Qin Pei Wo Zhan Zai Zhe Li
Meng Xiang Zhong Shu Yu Wo Men De Hun Li
Que Cheng Le Dan Ren Jie Hun Jin Xing Qu
Zai Zhe Chang Ai Qing Jiao Li De Ba He Li
Ai Wo Hai Shi Ai Ni
Ni Xuan Ze Le Zi Ji

Sa Jiao De
Ke Ai De
Nian Ren De
Ai Ku De
Zhao Pian Li
Ceng Jing De Dou Shi Ni Xi Huan De
Ru Jin Wo Hai Zai Yuan Di
Ni Que Zou Hui Ni De Ji Yi

Ni Shuo Wo Ai Ni Tai Duo
Jiu Kuai Yao Ba Ni Yan Mo
Ni Hai Pa Xing Fu Duan Zhan Yi Miao Jiu Peng Luo
Fen Kai Shi Yi Zhong Jie Tuo
Rang Ni Hao Hao De Xiang Guo
Wo Xiang Yao De Na Pian Tian Kong
Ni Shi Bu SHi Neng Gou Gei Wo

Ni Shuo Wo Gei Ni Tai Duo
Que Bu Neng Gei Wo Shen Me
Fen Bu Qing Ji Qing Cheng Nuo Yong Heng Huo Mi Huo
Ai Qing Shi Yi Dao Sheng Kou
Wo Men Ge Zi Ku Tong
Cheng Mo Shi Wo Zui Hou Wen Rou
Shi Yin Wei Wo Tai Ai Ni

Zhi Sheng Xia Gang Qin Pei Wo Zhan Zai Zhe Li
Meng Xiang Zhong Shu Yu Wo Men De Hun Li
An Jing Le
Zai Wo Zhen Bian De Meng Le
Wo Zhi Dao Xiang Ai Yuan Ben Bu Rong Yi
Ai Bu Shi Yi Jia Yi Nu Li Jiu You Jie Ju

Sa Jiao De
Ke Ai De
Nian Ren De
Ai Ku De
Zhao Pian Li
Ceng Jing De Dou Shi Ai Zhe Ni De
Lian Jia De Lei Hai Wen Re
Que Mei You Ren Wo Wo De Shou

not enough??
ENGLISH TRANSLATION!

There's only the violin left to stand here with me
The marriage between us that I've always dreamt of
Has become the tune of someone walking down the aisle alone
In this love tug-of-war, to love me or to love you
You chose yourself
Poutingly, Cutely, Girlishly, Loving to cry
All the photos contains memories that you lik
Till today I'm still at the starting point, but you have already walked back into your memories
You said I loved you too much, so much so that it's drowning you
You're scared that happiness will ebb after only a second
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully
Can you give me that life that I want
You said I gave you too much, that you couldn't give me anything
Can't tell between fervour, promises, eternity or temptation
Love is like a wound
Let's endure the pain ourselves
What is my final act of gentleness
Is because I love you too much
There's only the violin left to stand here with me
The marriage between us that I've always dreamt of
Has been silenced in my night-long dream
I know that mutual love is not easy from the start
Love is not just one plus one
You won't always get results even if you work hard
Poutingly, Cutely, Girlishly, Loving to cry
From all the photos we've taken it can be seen how much I once loved you
The tears on my cheeks are still warm, yet there's no one holding my hand
You said I loved you too much, so much so that it's drowning you
You're scared that happiness will ebb after only a second
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully
Can you give me that life that I want
You said I gave you too much, that you couldn't give me anything
Can't tell between fervour, promises, eternity or temptation
Love is like a wound
Let's endure the pain ourselves
What is my final act of gentleness
Is because I love you too much

hahaaa!
that is to occupy time.

i love my coach(:
hes been giving me support ever since PSLE.
hes like a second father to me lorh.
thought i everytime misbehave.
-.-
but he is really a good coach
MORE than a coach to me.. (:

a coach who gives support.
a coach who doesnt just teaches me wushu.
but values and stuffs(:

hahas.
but i crank up sometimes.
example?
the sms jusst now..

he: so which school you going?
me: dun tell you . scare you haunt me
he: i go visit you for coffee when i am free.
me : sorry. i dun drink coffee and dun worry i will run away de.
he : you are so lucky to have someone go visit you and bring you for food and drink yet you run away
me : i scare i get kidnap mah
he : who dare kidnap you when your wushu teacher around?
me: they duno mah . and i go raffles girls lehh
he : work harder . and if got time i bring your sister go visit you also
me : NOOOOOOOOO!
he: you go with jia ann and ivory is it?
me : no lah. i not that good. i go yishun lah (: me bad right?
he: no need bother about what has passed. just put in more effort in future. you have my support and blessing (-:

hahaas. lame-.-
sososososososssoo
i go watch me show le.
BYE BYEE!
( ystd de yu le bai fen bai is funny! )

but no one upload to youtube D:
nvm
got time i go search! ><

2008-12-18T20:28:00.000-11:00

i swear i would never change my blogskin again!
FOR A WEEK ONLY ! ><
reason??
well...
i've been changing blogskin contiunously for like 4 5 days???!~!
and i am soooooooo tired liaos.
no nice de blogskin lehh D:
and my tagboard is dead...
as always.
reason..
hmm.
not many ppl know i changed url -.-
kkays lame.

tmr go sec schhooool.
meet new friends time lerh

nervous..
need wake up early.
rachell.
i want go same school wit you D:
nvm.
i got the boys accompany me(:
BOYS LEHH! ><
but me and them very close so nvm (:

my to do list :
1. stop your too addicted to changing blogskin thing
2. get used to your blogskin thats it!
3. kill yourself if you cant...

okays.
see? i typed liaoo.
you can see clearly
so dun be suprised if you are invited to my funeral!
0.0
kkays.
im going back to my " crazy about xiao zhu and xiao gui"
BYE BYE
i go watch their show lerh!
no disturbance please!~

爱情是一道伤口
看见你我觉得很心痛。。。
可以不在我面前出现吗？

because i know you were looking for me the minute you entered the hall.
i came late.
you turned around and look at me.
i pretended.
pls..
im not over it .

2008-12-18T18:41:00.000-11:00

yeahs/
i got into yishun sec.
NO TOWN! -.-
though i wanted so much to get into that school ;X
tmr need go to the secondary school lerh!
the last day meeting 6endurance.
hahas.

now im finding a new blogskin for the class.
as a fairwell significance.
woah.
my english improved worh!
NVM
i can meet new friends(:
no worries no worries.
hahas :X

so ....
tmr is the day
nth much.
i just realised that someone grew uglier.
hope that person get bashed by his sec school friends :X
i so evil.
yih chyuan.
you same school as that person. (:
i think so lah. cus he first choice also put that one.

wahahahaha.
im gone for good now.
GOODBYE!~

2008-12-17T18:52:00.000-11:00

back back back back backk!
ahh
im full.
i skipped lunch
cus ystd night i almost vomited.
cus we stayed till late midnight.
then we still eating.
D:
about 1am in the morning then BATHE ><
but its fun.
me and yvonne shared memories...
when we were 4 till now.
that time we fought for duno what.
lots of memories.
but we are seperating D:
next year. after knowing each other for like 9 years
and treating each other like sisters(:
my sister..
ily lots((:
lots lots lots AND LOTS!
and sorry i couldnt get into the school you are going to D:
my marks arent up to standard.
but NVM
still got jason anddd bernard((:
thats the whole day..

psst! the shandy is sooo damn nice de lorhhs xP

and I GIVE UP LERH!
find this is the last last skin im using.
then maybe next year then find another one barhs.
next year...
next year...
NEXT YEAR???!
i would have been dead finding it -.-
siau siau siau siau
and guys.
pls add me worhs(:

beyondwords.xiaobin@yahoo.com.sg

big thankss!~

everytime i entered that very room.
it all came back to my mind.
you! you caused it.
you cause my memory to fade.
you filled my head with the memories we shared.
its over now
i told myself.
its overr...

~~but im trying soo hard to erase you from my mind! ><~~

2008-12-16T14:18:00.000-11:00

FREAK!
theres no nice blogskin D:
nth much to say today.
tmr MAY not be postin.
cus i go chalet (:
now im preparing the things.
so use laptop awhile.
WHY???!
simple.
my phone is spoilt.
which means.
my laogong is dead.
but the part of the "body " is operated out ( SIM card )
and fixed into a much much older body( my old phone -.-)
AND.
that phone doesnt have bluetooth
cannot play some songs.
the number "7" button cannot press UNLESS
you press it hard hard D;
and im beggin my mummy to exchange phone with her for just
ONE DAYYYY! ><><>< size="1">you knw . i really hope that you would be present there.
you always stood up for me.
i wonder what it will be like to go on without you...
but too bad D;

2008-12-15T20:06:00.000-11:00

done.
i useed last time de blogskin.
dun care.
cus i cannot find any nice nice de blogskin.
if you guys have pls recommend me.
thanks thnks.
byebye!

my phone spoilt D:

~~those words hurt me~~

2008-12-15T17:49:00.000-11:00

my phone spoilt.
thats all i have to say.
and thats why my mood is so bad today
cus i nidda wait fore like 1 or 2 months
then i can get a new phone.
so guys.
wanna sms me? just call my house number.
if im not at home.
just your luck ;P
tmr ...
going chalet.
rachel and jia enn.
if you guys want me go fetch you from tampines..
then just simple call my mom's number.
you guys should know rights?
so..
goodbye...

and and and.
i hate my phone.
its like whatever i phone i choose doesnt last up to one year D:
my laogong dead...
R.I.P my dear :X

may be changing blogskin again (:

2008-12-14T16:43:00.001-11:00

im blogging again
ystd night went AMK hub(:
saw someone whom i didnt expect to see.
ughhhh ><>me know its kinda small(:

lame i know lame i know.
im changing blogskins.
NOW.
kkays,
bear with it.
POOOFFFF!

fourteenaugustnineteensixtysix
12 years and 4 months(:

Even if you leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On This Love

2008-12-13T20:40:00.003-11:00

finally can play comp.
cus my cousins are out (:
if not they occupy the room
not much today.
i just wanna say.
blog changing timeee!~
nonono.
blogskin changing time!~
kkays.
bye byeeeeeee!

i love luo zhi xiang -.-
i love xiao gui! ._.

you're my motivator(:

guys. i edited this part larhs.
i no time to change blogskins.
too late.
and my dad's naggin ;x
tmr.
I PROMISEEE!!!
okays?

~~ily~~

2008-12-12T18:42:00.000-11:00

im stuffing myself up with cereals .
seriously, i am!
you know those cornflakes those kind.
without sugar icing on the top?
yeahs. those kind. yellow one.

went back to wushu today.
slacked badly today.
cus 3 ppl marhs.
with sharon.
sharon is of course slack de(:
so 3 of us slack lorh.
if not i would already be a good girl teaching them
yeahs. not much to comment.
went to eat ice cream float with teacher.
simply.
the 3 of our siblings went.
ivory,sharon ong and me.
clerissa, shirlyn and yan lin

may be changing bs again
cus nadiah says there is a prob with it.
so i will be working on it(:

may be changing my blogskin to black colour.
not bright colour anymore?
maybe...

now..
i don't like bang bang tang.
nor hei girl.
i only like.
my 2 and only..
xiao gui and luo zhi xiang((:

cereal bowl status:
empty D:
lets just go get somemore...

a month already.
im still not over you.
i tried to hold myself back.
because im trying so hard
to pull myself back.
and let myself face the reality.
when i thought of giving up.
you just seem to appear right infront of me
talking about school days.
stop doing this please..
reality VS fantasy...
i suffer every single day..
how i wished.
how i wished..
how i wished....
i hadnt met you
i don't want the same history to repeat again...
you made me fear of that. :D
applause to youuu!~

can i just hold you for the last time and not let you go?
im holding back the tears and try not to think of the words you said to me
sorryy...

羅志祥 - 我不會唱歌

they said that song got one ghost sound.
i say its fake.
but..
it is true.
" hehehehe"
if not was somekind of sound effect?
yeahs.
maybe..(:

i mean you turn it loud loud then you listen
creeepppyyy.
but but but
I STILL LOVE HIMMMM!~(:

still my bf.
xiao gui sing also nice nice.
love both of them!

我努力唱完主歌我忘了走音沒有
我到底哭什麼哭什麼明明搞笑的
我努力唱好朋友我忘了是誰哭了
就算你不記得這首歌唱完的是我

((:

Alan luo zhi xiang..
aka.
SHOW luo zhi xiang :D
hahass.

im waiting for his album to come to singapore!!!!!
i must buy buy buyy!
cannot also must beg my parents.
i want it ! ><

blogskin?
maybe tmr barhs
tuhday no time.
got things to accomplish(:
kkays?
BYE BYE!

ILOVEYOU XIAOZHUANDXIAOGUI! -.-
lame lame lame