1st August 2008.
its when the hell gates open.
and also my chinese calender bdae.
everytime, when the clock strikes midnight,
its the day, of my chinese birthday.
i am happy!
but not this year.
cus... i was wondering if she is out alr.
if you can see this. ( i know you cant... but i know you will be watching me)
i know you will.
TO: you, auntie jun chin

go back home.
go back home....
jun feng and uncle thomas will be missing you
they will be waiting upon your return
but dont end there.
go to grandma and grandpa's house.
they are waiting for you to visit them too.
as a family,
maybe sometime we all can unite again!!
at it will be like chinese new year.
our reunion dinner
and also getting ang paos!!! and those delicious food!
of course, i will not forget
holding onto your hand
and laughing out loud.(lol-ing)
i was thinking those times we had together.
the trip to thailandbangkok =DD
the pictures we took
looking back.
we played alot.
YOU DIDNT GO ON THE ELEPHANT RIDE!!
i kept persuaded you i rmb.
but you didnt.
and that time i rmb, on the van
a person frm duno whr called you.
i overheard.
saying that your cancer...
the appointment.
and you kept explaining to us what kind of different stages of liver cancer.
i still couldnt understand.
but now. a little?
you were a very nice person.
i have been saying this lots of time.
cus i regret not telling you when i saw you lying in the hospital
it hurts me.
and sickening.
it made me think
why are you the one not me??
what did i say?
i wanted to say.
ILOVEYOU
just this 3 simple words.
that isnt enough... for me
and today.
go around.
visit your loved ones.
i will welcome you and give you my blessings.
you were going through my mind throughout the day.
cus.
i really miss you dearest.
i can almost picture your face when you are healthy and the face when
you were lying in the coffin...
go home first.
jun feng needs you.
and..
iloveyou

from yupin( ping ping; i rmb you used to call me this)
rose((:

just another em0 post.
im sorry guys.
i gotta say it out.
sorry guys. i apologise.
and..
nth happened todayy.
just thinking bout her.

amalina, what wrong with you??? why did you cry.
i can bear. you too. let it out when noone is around. :DD
end dunt end up like me

its just lost.
1st august 2008



early mroning.
i wake up.
i start hearing bad news.
breaking up?
friendship?
crying?
homework?
cant everything get any better??
i came back from school.
mum said:
" your grandpa's brother.. tonight im going to a funeral,
rmb him?? me and your daddy going. you stay wid your cuzzin after you come back.
your granduncle just moved to a new bungalo. yesterday night, afew robbers broke into his house to rob him. he tried to stop them but he couldnt . it was too many, so he was... he was.. stabbed in the heart... he is now gone..."
after i heard i was shocked.
i slammed the door shut and stayed inside.
forget about lunch.
CANT ANYTHING GET BETTER??
i said i wanted to follow my mum.
i cant, cuz it was my bdae.
why is it that...
when one of them go..
the other also go??
i want A BIG FAMILY! a family who can untie together!!
but..
why must it be now??
why??
i just only saw him once.
but, he went???
WHAT IS THE MEANING???!!
why is it when one goes
the other follows?
and make all of us sad?
why god.. why..

i feel as if that i developed mental illness.
im always like this.
i can tear my pillow.
but i dun want!
i cant...
i may end up in mental hospital
or maybe
woodbridge.
anytime...

pls...
show your name.
i dunt want any ANNOYNAMUS!!!
who are you concern?