sobs larhs tuhdae.. ._.
last dayy widd mdm hanley... i cannot believe lorhs!!
tuhdae is... alr 2 wks wid her?? 1 wk liktat pass liaos.
i will miss her de worhs ;DD
tuhdae zoee nvr come. someone will sad de... haha. ;x
and kc misses windyy worhs!!! he really looks forward to mondayy.
tats whad he told mie. lols.
ytd, went AMK hub and bought a new hp for my daddy. for father's dae larhs.
aniwaes mine still nicer~~ :p
im so naughty.
ADMPS de wushu rawks like hellllll!!!!!!
muacks ya coach. love ya.
LOL!!!!
i just learnt sth frm the lesson tuhdae.
you see. the children in wushu(new ones larhs)
i let thm played a game that coach didnt allow.
but instead, he called us to practise...
but i played a game wid them. and tat game is the exact same thing coach told mie.
so i did.
now i know. you gotta find a way to at the same time let the children play and train.
i did a handstand tuhdae.
my face went red. and i was tremling. im so not gonna let myself do it agn!!
scary~~~~~

i went tuh see my cuzzin's blog.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
- yes.. my auntie is still in my heart, she didnt die.

i wished it toos. shes still alive in everyone's hearts.

and this post. make mie learn another lesson.
made me cry for another dayy. it touched my heart...

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her post frm here onwards
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hello people((:

suddenly felt like blogging.

so yeah :]

actually now i dont know what to say...

but i went to watch kungfu panda today..

and i fufiled like 3/4 of my to-do-list which i had in my prev list.. the only unfinished thing to do is my homework (as always..)

when i was walking home, i saw my grandma along the corridor, she was at the railing and she looked out to the sky.

my music was playing rather loud as i walked pass her, but she didnt turn behind or felt a thing.

so i lowered my music, and as i stood there and stare at her, i saw her expression.

i felt so sad.

she just looked up at the sky, the scenery, and just stared.

i could tell, many thoughts were passing through her mind.

but the expression she had on her face..

it was really..very..sad..

it was rather heartbreaking, so i just walked quietly home.

suddenly, auntie junching came into my mind.

when i looked up at the blue sky,
it reminded me of heaven.

and i was reminded of how auntie junching is happily settled there.


now, i really regret,
not being able to speak to my ahma..

i tried my best to speak in her language, but the only thing i could was speak in chinese.

everyday she never fails to cook for me dinner, and what did i do? i just went to eat out.

she cooked my favourite dish, brocolli, JUST FOR ME.

cos no one in this family liked brocolli, and she really cooked it JUST FOR ME.

but what did i do?

I JUST LEFT HER THERE, AND I BOYCOTT HER FOOD.

i went to eat out, or i would tell my mother this,

'IM SICK AND TIRED OF THE SAME FOOD, I WANT TO GO OUT AND EAT'

and no matter how much my mother tried to persuade me, i just wouldnt eat.

i feel so guilty.

i must have broken my ahma's heart.

from the time i saw my ahma cry during the funeral,

i couldnt take it.

"i wished that i could take it back..
but its over.." - its over, secondhand seronade.


im sorry.

im sorry i couldnt be there for you, im sorry i boycott your food, im sorry i couldnt be a good granddaughter,
im sorry to break you heart,
im sorry for anything i did that made you upset,

im sorry,
because no matter how sorries i can say..

you still cant understand the language..


sorry..
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it ends here((:
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i also regret some things.
i didnt eat much in grandma's hse.
at tat time she recovered, i tot tat she would be ok on her own.
yes. i did respect her. but, i talked behind here back.
complaining that daddy didnt spend family time with us.
but i know. she meant it good.
i know that she loves us to core...
i rmb i went stuborn at her hse... i forgotten. i got a gd scolding.
i also wanna sae sorry toos. grandma. i hope euu can understand.
auntiee jun chin, im sorry. i have school todayy.
couldnt go mandai to see. you... i'll pray for you.
im sure you are settled down there. everyone misses youu.
grandma... once agnn, im sorry. very sorry.
i knew you meant it well.