i finally realised im th lucky ones.
so many ppl cared fore mie...
but... i still regret whyye didnt i die last time??
why did the doctor make myye stupidd illness go away??
tat dae bfore i left the hospital...
i had an injection..
whch led mie to a disability whch i didnt noe.
mummy said tat i was so lucky to have survived
cuz not mani ppl had survived.
i've kept tis secrect....
iie had forgotten about it. totally..
untill th death of myye aunt.
i felt tat i was going to... be th nxt her.
im so scared.
tats whyye im a weakling...
i didnt noe so mani ppl cared fore mie..
i just didnt noe.
whn i was so damn ill... in th hospital
mye mum slept beside mie..
every single nite..
i couldnt walk properly..
cuz of th medicine..
i needed help..
each time i walk...
th injection led to a disability..
a disability within..
it can be shown but i didnt wanna do it..
i wasnt scared of heights...
but..
as i grow older... i start to tremble once i take a step up the tower or hill..
im scared of bells.
ue noe dose bells in lao pa sa??
im scared.
im scared of th merlion..
each time i c..
i would either cry, hide, or shout like mad..
i didnt noe so mani cared bout mie..
im so scared in everytig...
im so scared..
im so scared..
i am usless..
ytd mye mum shouted at mie...
"YOU ARE USELESS!! "
she was angry..
cus i noe im so different..
im so scared..
i dun wanna end up...
like..
im so so scared..
im just a weakling..